terrible day

[MossyDossy]

after a long day of dealing with crappy people and my minimum wage job I came home overwhelmed and upset. There’s a lot going on at home, I live with 6 other people and three dogs. I can’t relax. My significant other came over and as I was trying to get some sleep for about 30 minutes I finally had just gone to sleep only to be awoken by them coming and laying next to me. After waking up I felt so angry and they fell right asleep while I’m laying here awake. My body hurts and I have so many problems. I lost my friend a year ago today to suicide and I’m laying here silently crying and I feel so angry and hurt and I started to hurt myself by digging my fingernails into my skin. I feel like I’m having some sort of psychotic break.

[EndUser13]

I'm sorry life is being so difficult. Maybe one day you will be able to look back and realize that as crappy as today was, it was enduring these things that made you a stronger person... we can hope.

My sympathies about your friend. I have lost a couple of friends to suicide and it is not only sad it brings up SO many questions. Should I have... what if I... The lost potential is heartbreaking all its own.

I hope tomorrow is better. Look to the little victories, it can seem trite but it's better than dwelling on the things that massively suck.

[Focusedmind]

I am so sorry that happened to you! I am just miserable if I can't get enough sleep. I use a few things to block out noise from other people, like earbuds with meditation music, white noise machines to block out sounds, and sometimes earplugs, if possible. I have a small dog who sometimes wakes me up, but if I am tired, I close my door to keep her out of my bedroom.

For me, not getting enough sleep triggers a whole host of problems, and it can bring on a lot of anxiety and psychological issues. It is essential to get enough sleep, even if your bedtime is at odd hours of the day or night. I take 1 mg. of melatonin about 2 hours before bed every night. They say less is more with this natural herb, but you must take it several hours before bed. There are other more potent drugs your doctor can give you, but I have always worried about the side effects of trying to get up the following day.

There is a lot on the internet about how to improve your sleep. Some watches, like the Fitbit or Apple watch, will track your sleep. Some blinds block out the sun, and the "Calm" application will read you a story using your cell phone and many other devices.

Here is one article on the topic of sleep hygiene: sleepfoundation.org/sleep-h....

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Oh my gosh. It’s serious to have that feeling. You may need some kind of medication adjustment and some people to talk to or some therapy. Try to practice some good self care. Maybe take a long relaxing shower or bath if you can.