I'm a Mental Health Archeologist; Digging Up My 🦴 SKELETONS

[LifeIsThePitts]

So I had a dream that I don't remember....but I woke up 🥱 thinking about how I've been working on the yucky hard stuff I've buried DEEP down in the hidden dark corners of my mind and psyche.

I feel like a Mental Health Indiana Jones, unearthing my DEEPLY buried insecurities and perceived failures and shortcomings that have haunted me and held me back out of fear, insecurity and doubt throughout my nearly 49 years on this blue marble 🌎. So I'm digging up my internal emotional dysfunctional skeletons in my proverbial closet and sending them off to the afterlife one by one.☠️👹👺🔥👻👿😈

Recently I've been seeing the number 1111 all over the place. Anyone that believes in 😇 angel numbers, the universe is sending out messages ALL THE TIME! We just have to learn how to SEE them and integrate them with our higher intentions.

I linked a 2 min read about Angel number 1111. It's a fun concept and has a positive vibration. I'm shedding everything negative, like a snake 🐍 molting it's skin. I'm still the same person...just a shinier, upgraded version. Pitts2.0🤣🥳🤭

womansday.com/life/a3977921...

"What does angel number 1111 mean? The ones signify new beginnings. Whether you're about to embark on a brand-new passage or you're already on the right path, seeing 1111 coincides with that. And when you see it, experts say you should focus and use it as an indicator that you're on the right track."

[Starrlight]

I love this. It’s fascinating and I believe in angels and signs. Thanks for sharing, LifeIsThePitts ❤️

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Starrlight]

Just trying to bring some positivity to the forum. It's hard some days to see so much suffering and angst. There's a lot of scuffles unfolding recently and we're like a big family. We all have tiffs and arguments. So we take Time outs, and de-ruffle our feathers, and come back when we've decompressed whatever it is that's happening in our "real life".

I love that we get to make this place into what we need.

[fauxartist]

You're doing the work....and it often sends my dreams all over the place,...so dream interpretation is often very interesting when I can remember them.

[Artistfriend]

The four ones add up to 4 which signifies wholeness or completeness, the four seasons, the four elements, ect. The dreams are talking about the process youre going through of becoming whole again, thats my take on it anyway, keep going!

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Artistfriend]

Can't quit now...I'm way too invested in my journey and it's just starting to get SO GOOD 😊 like a novel 📚📖 you can't put down!

[designguy]

I did a lot of excavation when I was doing emdr therapy and would force myself to continue to lean into the uncomfortable memories and feelings and go deeper. i would also write whatever came up to be able to process it in therapy.

I have to admit that i'm a curious sceptic but trying to be open minded so i'll keep a look out for 1111, I just don't want to find any 666's - lol.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to designguy]

I like thinking that the universe has my back, ya know? I believe our loved ones watch out for us from beyond, they're our guardian 😇 angels. I feel I've had intervention from beyond during extreme difficulty in the past where I cannot say I had the wherewithal to make conscious decisions.

To me, Angel numbers are a quirky "horoscope-like" novelty. I firmly believe now that WHAT I look for, I WILL find. I've lived looking for the awful things to happen...and they have. I'm changing my pattern to find the GOOD...and it's working.

In 2004 when I quit all drugs at the end of my 3+ yr binge on meth, SOMETHING made me do it...but it wasn't ME. If I hadn't (unconsciously?🤔) quit, hubby and I would have ended up dying by OD one day. I came out of work at 4am, swing shift, strung out and at the end of my rope. gonna light a cigarette 🚬.... stopped dead in my tracks. Looked at the lighter in my shaking hand and the cig in the other. Threw them in the 🗑️ trash and went cold turkey on EVERYTHING. Something TOLD me, "Quit now, choose Life. Light cig, choose death."

Detoxing from meth was one of the hardest things I've ever come through. But not as bad as detoxing from tramadol tolerance after only 6 WEEKS of less than prescribed use before my first botched back fusion. It was like full blown opioids withdrawal when I was told this was not habit forming because I expressed to my pain mgmt Dr I couldn't tolerate the side effects of opioids. I feel i was lied to and this is one of the reasons why I refuse to take Rx meds of any kind. They EFF you up worse than the conditions they're prescribed for over time. Hence my interest in and commitment to NATURAL, holistic, psychedelic meds. I'm lucky that my body chemistry is well wired for these treatment options.

My Psilocybin microdosing experience is going AMAZINGLY AWESOME, beyond my wildest expectations, & my monthly TMS appointment is Tuesday. I haven't been so close to complete remission EVER!

[designguy in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

Wow, you really have had quite the journey and are not only a survivor but a thriver and amazing. You are an inspiration here.

I'm fortunate that I never tried meth, cocaine used to be my drug of choice, that and alcohol. I use to drink and black out and I guess I was funny as hell at the time but grateful I survived. I managed to quit the cocaine when I got together with my now wife, thankfully my self-preservation part is stronger than my addictive part. Now i'm practicing gratitude and joy of being alive and getting to do another day and have fun. I'm amazed at how good practicing gratitude feels throughout the day, it's a cliche but a good one.

Glad things are working for you and you're firing on all cylinders.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to designguy]

I wish I would have stopped at cocaine. But some of us need harder lessons than others.🤦it was the best of times, it was the WORST of times, in every way possible. I accomplished some of my greatest goals and nearly destroyed myself in the aftermath. It was epic! Hubby was driving limo for all the biggest performers on the strip and I was dealing to all the biggest gamblers in town. We had the world by the balls. I have stories you'd never believe. But you can't play that hard forever.

Life is on the completely opposite side of the spectrum these days. I've been to 3 BBQs in 13 months. Otherwise it's just me hubby and the pups. That's what we prefer. My life then was CRAZY and wildly unpredictable, but void of meaning or substance. In all honesty, my life now is completely dull and boring, but I've never been in a better place mentally and physically. The last 7 years of physical and mental health disasters should have killed the average person. But here I am... trying to make lemonade 🍋 from lemons. Looking for the lotus flower in a pond of crap...

TMS tomorrow 😉