I basically throw temper tantrums when I get overstimulated….and it’s so embarrassing.

[lindaayba]

I didn’t realize until today that that’s what has been happening. Its more consistent in the morning. I get really overheated, prickly and itchy feeling on my skin, I feel like I exit my own body, and I lose control of my anger, and emotions in general. It results in an explosion of anger.

It’s so embarrassing that I’ve never told anyone, but I feel everything all at once and I can’t get a “grip” on my own mind and body in that moment. I have to fight that version of myself to come back to normal

[hhouseofballoons]

I experience what you described too, I call them episodes. Dissociate and watch myself say/do things that are not me. It is me but also not me.

I've been looking into Intermittent explosive disorder. The guilt is the worse part, no one can hurt me quite like me.

Things that have helped me - Drinking OJ within 10-15 mins waking up, low blood sugar triggers the skin crawling and irritation for me.

Looking in the mirror, forcing eye contact with myself and ask Why are you angry? Then it usually makes me feel silly enough or I have a good cry.

Valium if it's really bad.

[lindaayba in reply to hhouseofballoons]

Yes! That’s how it feels—like I’m watching myself have these outbursts and I’m actively judging my actions in the moment, in real time. That’s why it feels like I have to fight my own body and mind to bring myself back. It’s like I turn into a whole other person, they have control of my body and I just have to sit and watch because even if I scream for them to stop, they don’t listen or hear me.

[lindaeliza]

Where did you buy this shirt? by the way

[lindaayba in reply to lindaeliza]

I bought this on thedreamcolors.com/your-anx...

[losemind]

I too become a crabby toddler when overstimulated and stressed. Meditation is the only thing that has helped me better manage those feelings and my response when I’m feeling extreme anxiety. You should give it a try.

[lindaayba in reply to losemind]

Are you taking anxiety medication for it? Or a different kind of med

[losemind in reply to lindaayba]

No meds. While I have a lot anxiety, it hasn’t prevented me from living my day to day life. Even if I’m uncomfortable sometimes. It has been cause for me to act in ways I’m embarrassed of because I have trouble regulating my emotions under stress. I manage through meditation and exercise. I have also worked with a therapist though I started meditating prior to working with them.

It’s not a one size fits all problem though. For some, medication is the best route. I know people who being on meds has been life changing for.

[hansonax]

Are you also ADHD or autistic? Because the two of those go with anxiety hand in hand. I’m autistic and my gf is ADHD and we have no problem pointing out when one another get overstimulated and we need a break.

[charlydabass]

I'm the same way. I get super irritable when I'm overstimulated which causes me to have an extremely shirt fade with everyone. And then when it's over, I have extreme guilt for how I behaved or acted towards people around me. Now when I'm feeling that way, I make sure to let my SO and others around me know.

[lindaayba in reply to charlydabass]

I feel guilt instantly, and it makes me haaaaate myself. I feel bad for those who have to deal with me, I truly feel so bad

[Midori]

Love your hoodie! Welcome to the community. Sorry I don't have any advice to give.

Cheers Midori