Biological brother

My biological brother has officially ghosted me and although I've thought about it, journaled and understood why he probably did it (and I try not to blame him for it, although it's hard) my mind can't stop thinking about it. I've suffered from narcisstic abuse all my life from my father, have been closeted because of it and on top of that have psychosis and struggled with ocd and perfectly knowing my sexuality. The fact that he has ghosted me I understand cause I have moved from the same spot in the last 7 years but I have tried my best. I have a studio moved out of my parents just got a car loan and yes I'm still single but I guess I'll just use this as motivation to be more open hearted. To say it doesn't hurt would be a lie but maybe it's for the best right now and hopefully our paths and reconnect in the future. Whether you understand or not is not my business at the moment.

[kenster1]

know the feeling not on speaking terms with my brother.