HELP!!!!

[Whistle_charm]

She uses religion so we'll to mask the evil within her. I'm literally struggling to keep afloat and she finds new ways to make me hurt. Every time I try to hold everything in n not look crazy she pushes me over the edge.... Then I scream out of pain n the neighbors hear then in a loud voice she talks about how I need God.........I need God? He's the only one holding be together!!!!!!!!! He'd be ashamed at how He was being used.

I carry a load a 35yr old would shy away from. Put some food on the table but ain't no food left when I get home from work. I can't save to pay debts. Can't sleep. Rent is due. My mom's a nag. My Dad doesn't give a fuck.

The anger is consuming, eating at my soul. I know I'm a good person but she brings out this side of me I'm never aware I have. Then that crooked smile that no one else sees her wear. I need to move out before I become a murderer.......

I'm supposed to be getting better. I'm so ashamed of myself.

[gerrerd]

Realise that your parents have their ideas on life, They do not have to be yours. Learn your own way of thinking, we do it not god! trust in yourself work on you. Learn as much as you can about life and how to take control of it, be you not your parents beliefs and judgments. Check out Wayne W Dyer look on you tube watch his videos. Ray.

[Whistle_charm in reply to gerrerd]

Thank you so much