She uses religion so we'll to mask the evil within her. I'm literally struggling to keep afloat and she finds new ways to make me hurt. Every time I try to hold everything in n not look crazy she pushes me over the edge.... Then I scream out of pain n the neighbors hear then in a loud voice she talks about how I need God.........I need God? He's the only one holding be together!!!!!!!!! He'd be ashamed at how He was being used.
I carry a load a 35yr old would shy away from. Put some food on the table but ain't no food left when I get home from work. I can't save to pay debts. Can't sleep. Rent is due. My mom's a nag. My Dad doesn't give a fuck.
The anger is consuming, eating at my soul. I know I'm a good person but she brings out this side of me I'm never aware I have. Then that crooked smile that no one else sees her wear. I need to move out before I become a murderer.......
I'm supposed to be getting better. I'm so ashamed of myself.