"I was never difficult to love, Just loved by the difficult"

[Shanm2]

"I am unloveable, something is wrong with me" "I'm difficult to love" You have along the way been taught that there is something wrong with you, therefore negative beliefs of yourself start to form and you think you're imperfect, but there isn't and you're not.

"I was never hard to love, just loved by the difficult"

There is nothing wrong with who you are, with the core of you and who you are as a person.

You might be unlearning generations of harm and negative core beliefs from the difficult people. It takes time.

[WyattMann]

But it is more difficult to love someone who has major depression or ptsd. I could see how my own moods would ruin relationships. When you're always sad but your gf is happy. And people can't understand why you can't just be happy.

[Amanba in reply to WyattMann]

I have a worrryguts husband. I love him even on his down days which are often. It's not difficult. I know him and love for who he is and I see beyond his worry and struggles and sorrow.

[WyattMann in reply to Amanba]

I guess nobody truly loved me the way you love him. And I don't blame them tbh. I'm sure they found better people and can be happier now.

[Shanm2 in reply to WyattMann]

I don't know your situation, or who you are, but i can relate with what you've written. You say 'you could see how your own moods ruined relationships' I just wonder if there was a part of you that didn't feel worthy of the types of relationship? Or your girlfriend at the time? I'm sorry that it seems from what you've written, that a lack of understanding to why you 'can't always be happy' I know from experience how extremely difficult it can be when people can't see the sadness that sits within.

I often felt that i wasn't loveable and difficult to live with, like there was something wrong with me.

But i also just want to remind you that regardless of your major depression and PTSD, you are worthy/deserving of being loved and understood.