My flu makes my anxiety and depression sky high

[Against_the_current]

I'm constantly Overthinking. I'm Overthinking my place. Whether it's too expensive for what i get. Whether i got sick because of it. Buying the stuff i need. I feel like a burden for needing to buy stuff for here and for my flu. I want to cry all the time. I'm feeling so dark, it's so dark and cold here. I'm alone and trying to take care of myself. I didn't sleep all night, i was going insane the morning after hours of being sick at night. So i went to sleep at like 11am and slept till 3pm. Woke up feeling terrible. My sister messaged me she feels like she's now an intp instead of infp. I felt bad. I got myself and went to the supermarket to buy sth to eat, water and sth to help me dispencer the water. Felt terrible. Then went to the tech store, couldn't find a new ac remote, bought a small heater. Felt terrible. Then went to another shop to seek for a clothes drier. Saw the price and desided to see in the supermarket. There were no busses. Went to the supermarket, no drier. Then pharmacy. Then seeked for sth to dry laundry on... Then turned on the heater, took a shower, drank some water, ate a bit for the first time today, took meds for both my mental and physical health. Felt a bit better once im warm and not dehidrated. Alone did it all. Sorry If i'm too much and If my friend is right about me being annoying with my struggles. Can't stop Overthinking about If this place is worth the money. Worried about on which bill the common areas go. The guy who lives next door uses a hundred cooking machines, i use just the washing mashine. Technically the kitchen is his as a place and as a rent but i Wonder who pays the bills for there. And the landlord is too scary to talk to. I heard he drinks. I'm gonna try mention it when the bills come but i'm really shy and can't defend myself. I have only the lights and tv on so i don't get depressed. Can't stop Overthinking. Too much phynansical pressure. And my sister messaged she wants something, i couldn't even understand what

[emmi331]

It's a shame you had to be out running errands when you're sick! 🤒 But I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

Yes, you did do all this alone, which means you're stronger than you think you are. As for overthinking, this is a problem for many people. In fact, I have a mug that says, "Hold on a minute while I overthink this." So I'm guilty of the same thing.

Tell your busy mind you don't feel up to a lot of thinking right now because you're sick! Then do something to distract your mind, like watching television, reading or doing a puzzle of some kind.

If you are shy, you may be worried about what people will think about you when you speak up for yourself. As an old friend of mine always says, "My life became so much more peaceful when I stopped worrying about what people are THINKING about me!" 😁

[Against_the_current in reply to emmi331]

That's great! Thank you so much, Emmi. Really well said and i really needed this

[emmi331 in reply to Against_the_current]

I'm so glad! 🙂