It’s been the toughest year of my life (excluding the death of my mom over 24 years ago)
My “friends” have abandoned me. Others have dismissed me. And yet, others take great comfort not only in my despair but add fuel to this unstoppable fire.
My spirit is broken. I’m so tired of putting on an act of positivity.
I don’t know what God’s plan is, but I’m not sure I will be around to see it through. There’s no light ahead…just more dark mazes.
Hi Cryinginside and Welcome...You've taken a positive step forward in coming
on this safe site. We've pretty much all have been through the same issues with
regards to friends and even family not understanding and pulling away.
People cannot support what they don't understand or see. We feel something that
doesn't require a cast, a crutch or even a band-aid. Mental Health issues are a
personal suffering from deep within. How do we explain that to someone who never
experienced it themselves. And so we have this caring site to come to where we are
never judged or put down for what we feel. I hope you find this site to be a comfort. 
xx
thank you, but this is unbearable
I know it seems unbearable right now. I understand because I've been there.
In finding myself and believing in myself even if no one else did, I found my way
back home. With the help of others, you will find the strength within you to carry on
as well. I care xx
I just lie in bed and cry. I was in a Dept store today (I made myself get out of the house). After 15 minutes, my heart was sinking and I started tearing up. I left ASAP.
I hear you my friend...I cried uncontrollably for years. I couldn't talk w/o crying.
There seemed to be no reason except for the deep emotions I was feeling.
It wasn't a specific thing but an overall fear of everything. I cried hysterically
talking with my therapist so much so that I'd come down with horrific contraction
headaches. My life felt as if it were at a standstill.
You are not alone. I did not have any friends at the time. No support group as this
to help me.
I was determined that I Would and I Could get myself back in control again.
It wasn't about popping a pill or hoping and wishing for a magic solution.
But it was about getting my head on straight. When the psychiatrist says he doesn't
know what to do anymore, you know that the answer lies within you.
One day at a time, one foot in front of the other and I made it to my goal.
I am here to pass my success forward in helping others. It was quite a journey
but the results are amazing. xx
I’m sorry you are feeling this low. I know how tough it can be. There is always a light just around the corner.
Same.. same here. 😔
Hello and welcome to the group, sorry you are going through a tough time. If you are not, you would benefit from working with a therapist or counselor to process your emotions and grief so you can start to heal and feel better. You may even find medication to be helpful for you at least temporarily. All of us have to deal with pain and loss at times throughout our lives and many of us were never taught or modeled and even punished for it so we need to learn how to do it for ourselves. Working with a therapist can help and show you how.
I haven’t been able to rest, focus. I’m totally broken. I’m worthless to this world.
I’m hopeless, a failure. Alone. I just can’t stop the depression and anxiety. I’ve been in tears for a good part of the last two days. My heart and mind are broken.
It’s just not worth fighting for my sanity anymore. There is no happiness.
My personal and professional life is in shambles. The one I love deeply and passionately seems distant. I just can’t breathe.
Terrified, lonely…it’s unbearable. I pray that I die in my sleep. I can’t deal with the torture.
Please God, be merciful and take me.
Hopeless
Hopelessness 
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