Just wondering how everyone is fairing. Season change and time change coming up can be rough so I hope everyone is doing well (or at least the best they can).
I am good. Husband is retiring out of the military and it’s scary as all get out but I am trying to stay calm and be positive. So many Changes that my anxiety spikes but I am finding ways to work through it.
I feel good today , have not have a panic attack in a few days so that is win for myself. Yesterday I enjoyed going to the park and walking around and going on the swings even though I’m a grown adult 😂. Looking forward to the weekend and just relaxing .
I love swings! I don’t think you are ever to old to swing
lol yea sometimes people give me crazy looks
It’s that time of year when I think seasonal affective disorder starts to become apparent. The days are getting shorter and colder, where I live the sun hasn’t been out too much today, now the sky is this depressing gray color. I raked up some leaves a week ago, now more have been coming down. I’d like to buy something I’ve seen called a dawn simulator. It’s this light that you set a timer on and it wakes you up in the morning instead of hearing a noisy alarm to get up. It slowly brightens up the room with a lot of light. That seems like an easier way to wake up than being jolted awake by a loud alarm. However I think it does cost a lot, it’s not cheap. I should look that up online, maybe if I can swing it I’ll try buying one. I might see my doctor and ask if it would be helpful if I took some kind of vitamin D supplement too. I definitely get more depressed in the winter when there’s no sun.
I have seen that alarm clock! I want one too. Sounds like such a great gentle way to wake. I think it has many different sound options as well. You can also program it to be a calming bedtime routine with sounds or slowly dimming lights. Bliss!
Thanks for checking in. I'm sad at the moment. I think it's the darkness. I'm also overthinking things and that never helps. I just have to stay in the present. That is surprisingly hard to do these days.
Good luck to you and your husband in this new chapter of your life! I'm trying to keep busy, avoid those holiday blues 😊
Thank you! What about the holidays brings you down?
Hi Willow, thanks for asking! I guess there's just so much emphasis on family togetherness, but I don't come from a tight-knit family, and I haven't made a family of my own yet, so getting through the holidays is sometimes a struggle. I've learned to surround myself with people and fill my calendar with fun stuff 🙂
Understandable! Sometimes the family we have is the one we choose which can be a wonderful thing. We are also here for you if you need us 💜
Thank you Willow 🤗
oh hubby is home but he is retiring from the military so it’s A little crazy with job interviews and narrowing down where we want to live in Wisconsin. It’s so weird to go from being a military wife for 20 years to just a regular ol’ person 😊. But I am actually really looking forward to it. He has done his time and then some.
It's good to know that I'm not the only one.
Good to see you back Willow. 
Hey Anxious Silver! I had to take a break. It became toxic for me so I just skipped away for a bit. I am feeling energized and positive 💜
hi I haven’t posted in a long time I spent a month traveling near the end I felt the anxiety come back in Without expressing a political view I’m scared about the future of our country Everyone and everything is so nasty I can’t watch tge tv
The ads make me sick commercial radio is not much better Im worried that democracy is going to go a away or the states May break up My main point is that nothing is normal snd some kind of war is coming I’m 74 I’m retired I miss my work although I do some part time free lance work That usually makes me feel better My step son moved in with us with his kids Rhe parents separated He is rather sloppy messy does not clean up and doesn’t teach the kids to help clean up So my wife s d step son fight a lot It gets pretty nasty and loud snd I have to go to my room to hide I try to talk to each side separately I also list two cousins s d a close neighbor this year Trying to cope by pretending that I live in a tiny village with close neighbors Cut off from the rest of the world abd im not unvokved with gardening hiking in woods gardening feeding birds abd burying myself in books
It helps often but not always My neighbor was a soft spoken man was only 65 jyst retired and he had a sudden massive heart attack I knew him for 25 years
I feel like the moment that we entered this 21st century starting with 9/11 which was 5 years after my first wife died suddenly from a rare blood disease nothing has been normal and it gets worse week by week And tmw Tuesday is Election Day and no matter what happens there will be trouble and accusations and I just can’t hear it I’m scared / Dappy
You are going through a lot. The USA is definitely going through a lot. My suggestions:
1. Lay down some rules for anyone and everyone staying with you. Even if they are paying rent or sharing food/utility bills it is still your house and does not need to be overrun with a mess
2. It’s okay to grieve for your friend. Be sure to let your self feel those emotions when they come and don’t just ignore them or shove them away.
3. I am scared too. I try make a difference but it is a battle right now. I do what I can and remember above all else to be kind and empathize with others. My hope is the next generation doesn’t mess things up as much as mine has (born in 1978).
Feeling a bit blue today! Even though it's warm out where I am and getting outside feels good, I can't shake this underlying feeling, not sure why? Energy level is down...
HOW CAN I CHANGE TO BE WHO SHE WOULD LIKE ME TO BE?
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