New Symptom for me

[ScooterJoe]

Now that so many things are returning to a different type of 'normal' from Covid, it almost saddens me. I felt the lockdown was a perfect situation for me--it gave me an excuse to not leave the house. The problem is not that I am afraid to leave the house, I just don't want to leave the house. After getting up and getting dressed, I head straight for my favorite chair. I stay there 2 or more hours in solitude until I perhaps read a newspaper or listen to music,etc.--but definitely no housework. I used to be such a good housekeeper prior to my retirement. But what concerns me now is my apathy. It's not that I don't want to do things but rather that I actually don't care about doing anything. I've dealt with depression for many years but have never felt this way. Is this a new phase of depression or has it always been there and I just never gave in to it? I get so tired of being referred to as lazy. (I have a muscle disease also that leaves me not feeling well but shows few outward symptoms.)

[Roxylox]

I can only find the energy to do the basics. Then its usually in the evenings. I am good to clean, but hopeless to tidy, always was. I clean around the clutter. Irlnically l work as a cleaner but not in private houses where tidying might be required. I have good hygiene standards, but that doesn't show at home with all the clutter.I feel your pain. You don't say whether clutter forms part of your problem.

[ScooterJoe in reply to Roxylox]

Oh yes! Just can't seem to get rid of the 'stuff' just lying around.

[Babe1213]

You sound just like my husband - who also has a muscle condition - Becker's Muscular Dystrophy. You don't say how old you are, but my husband is 75, and does just the same. He also had a fall in January and has been unable to get out of the house since because we do not have a ramp - YET - coming on Monday. Only you can motivate you. You must ask yourself, 'Do I want to live like this for the rest of my life?' If you do, fine, your choice. But if not, then do something. Get up, washed, dressed, go for a walk, feel the fresh air on your face. Say good morning to neighbour. Ask also, 'Do I want to be happy?' Being happy is not a result, it is a choice. You won't achieve happiness until you choose to be happy?

[ScooterJoe in reply to Babe1213]

I'm close to your husband's age, I just turned 72. Took 10 years to diagnose that I have something similar to Miyoshi myopathy. There are still unknown varients in my DNA results but they say that diagnosis is at least 'close'. I have only gotten to this point in the last year or so. Don't know if this apathy is part of my depression or the result of something else. I also have narcolepsy and usually don't feel like doing ANYTHING until a couple of hours after the meds for that kick in.