Stuff all over the place?

[Raggedy-Ann]

look around at your space do you have piles of laundry, or haven't seen the top of the coffee table for years? is your place a mess? I can tell when someone is depressed by their mess. I start projects and bounce around the house making small strides. there are many days I just want to sleep. I've had a pile of laundry on my dining table for years. I wash my clothes, dry them and put them on the table. I walk by the table and grab one thing like all of the towels and put them away, once a day. my refrigerator and cupboards are full of food because I hate going to the store. I have a friend whose house is a wreck and and he has no food in his fridge. I am really depressed for the last couple of days.

[Agora1]

If you've ever watched Hoarders you would see how true your post is.

When our mind is chaotic so is our life. An "I don't care" attitude shows with

the disarray of items strewed all over the house. I'm sorry dear that you are

so depressed. Sending you a hug to let you know I care as I sign off for the night xx

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Agora1]

I don't think I've ever disagreed with you before, but this time I think you may be off the mark. For me, it's that I care too much, not too little. Perfectionism, confusion, and pain. Hat trick. Result: chaos.

[Dolphin14]

I'm sorry you are feeling so down.

I have to have things in order or I find myself getting anxious. Life is too chaotic for me if things are not in their place.

I do understand the lack of motivation to clean when depression sets in.

Hope you feel better soon. Sending healing vibes

🐬

[Nothing_but_books]

It's very brave to share how things are bothering you.

I have this as a screensaver. It helps.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Nothing_but_books]

that's what I do, like the laundry pile... thank you

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

You're welcome.

[mrmonk]

My space is a mess, but I'm not depressed.

I just like my clutter.

Because each seemingly untidy pile is arranged just so with everything in its right place.

And because it's mine.

Mine, my organized chaos.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to mrmonk]

Is my mind playing tricks, or have you slipped a quote in there? It's driving me crazy.

[mrmonk in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Not quotes exactly, but there are nods to songs by Radiohead and The Beatles in there.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to mrmonk]

Don't know Radiohead, so I looked around and found "Daydreaming".

My usual unerring instinct.

Time for bed.

[Nothing_but_books in reply to mrmonk]

It's beautiful mrmonk. Thank you.

(I refer to the mess post. Lovely.)

[Raggedy-Ann]

the funny thing is that my living room is spotless and so is my guest bathroom. my kitchen is getting a makeover now. I got rid of everything off the top of my cupboards, all nicknacks out of there. it took me 12 days to paint it since my right arm is in a splint and I am not supposed to grab or lift anything. I am making a huge effort in my world. I've been having this choking reaction to clutter and to bold or busy busy patterns. I get to the point of vomiting if I stay in the store too long. I only buy solid colored clothes and bedding. its weird.

[Hidden in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

So is that a Ying Yang thing with one clean room and one messy?

[Blueruth]

For years I could have but didn't have anyone clean because it was too messy. In fact I wanted to hire a company. The sales guy told me they couldn't do it. I was so ashamed. I did get help. There are organizers that specifically work with hoarders and other people that are in over their heads. I am not a hoarder but I was over my head. So now I do have a cleaner every two weeks. That means I am up super early picking stuff up but it keeps me on track. If you buy unnecessary things it might be worth it to divert some funds.

I am also motivated by the desire to leave the country part or full time. That means downsizing. I have a corner piled with stuff. I will hire someone to haul it away. Pre pandemic I was doing good then I had nothing to do so I bought a bunch of craft supplies and dug my sewing machine out of the closet.

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Blueruth]

I have very little storage space, no basement well it is a dug out room and I won't go down there. I have a carport not a garage. my house is a 1902 miner's house so not much storage. I spent a lot of money on stuff in the past now I am buying only a few things to update the house. that is my craft project

[Blueruth in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Think of it a shifting air and then when it is gone you have more to breathe!

[Raggedy-Ann in reply to Blueruth]

yes!