I have misophonia, but no one seems to get it. I tried to explain it to my neighbor when I asked him to not let their kids scream all the time (they literally play from any time 10 AM - 12:30 AM), he called me a mad jerk and shut the door in my face. I was very friendly about it (I wasn't being entitled or demanding and I didn't suggest that they shouldn't play at all, I only said that if they could please keep their voices down when they play outside), and I am a non-confrontational person in general, so I can't be tough even if I wanted to. It took me about a year to gain the courage to knock on my neighbor's door and ask him to keep it down, and I wasn't planning on explaining my situation as it is my right to have quietness especially in the early morning and the late night even if I didn't have misophonia, but it was a spur-of-the-moment thing and I got a horrible reaction I didn't expect to receive. I have never felt so humiliated in my life. I tried to knock again, but he completely ignored me.
The thing is, I have terrible anxiety, so all the kid-screaming has become a horrible fear of mine, all the time, even when they're not screaming, it is all I am worried about. My house is my safe place from all the things that can give me anxiety, but the kids screaming is the only thing that can perforate that haven and conquer me in my safety. It is like misophonia and anxiety are just planning to give me a heart attack. I am a grown man and I hear a kid screaming and sends within me this horrible, deep fear and anger and annoyance and I am not a jerk because I can't seem to control it.
Even my brothers are saying I am exaggerating, kids are supposed to play in the street or in the garden, but, for me, there are six things that make me angry and afraid:
1-It is a constant, daily reminder about how I can't confront others.
2-It triggers my misophonia which kind of paralyzes me.
3-There is no predicting it, it can happen at any time, at any day, so there isn't a pattern where I can build my life around it like other anxieties I have and create a system to make me less anxious about it .
4-The lack of respect of letting them scream at early mornings on holidays and weekends or at late nights on work nights.
5-The fact they scream all the time, they don't play quietly, they SCREAM, and their parents seem to think it's okay.
6-That there seems to be no other neighbor bothered by this, it makes me feel abnormal.
I am just so tired of this, a whole year of paralysis within my own home. There are certain rooms I avoid going into just because it is on the side of the house closer to those neighbors, because what if there kids were screaming now? It'll ruin my whole day.
I used to LOVE winter, but now I dread it, because it is the time they play outside the most, unlike the summer when it is hot.
As I said, I have many anxieties, but this is the first one that paralyzes me within my home, the first one to cause me to have depressive episodes.
I am a collector, I collect things like first edition books, figures, china, vintage perfumes, even DVDs in the age of streaming services, being home was the pinnacle of my happiness, but now I don't enjoy my collections because they are there, in the house, where screaming from my neighbors might occur and then I'll just be sad and angry for the rest of the day with no interest in expanding my collections or going out. I can't even use the bathroom properly because it is on their side, so I use it quickly before someone screams and my day is ruined.