Wake up feeling scared

[Against_the_current]

I just woke up and i'm scared mom might be and about something. I tried my best to put my sister to sleep on time but i couldn't. Mom went to sleep and i had to study with sis, make her shower to dry her hair and she felt unwell and i gave her meds. And we just went to bed, thinking mom wouldn't awke up and see it's midnight and we had to go to sleep at 10pm. But sis was feeling unwell and didn't want to sleep and mom woke. I'm scared she's gonna be mad. I was anxious as hell, trying to not throw up and cry nad i studied with her, dried her hair, gave her meds. She's not my kid but with parents like that i have to take care of her and i can't. I was thinking i better go back to university city and i just wake up from a nightmare that i was there and my roommate was bullying me and when i reacted she said im psycho. I hope it's all anxiety

[Genuineguy]

I hope you're OK too. Youre doing a really great job looking after your sis and I'm sure you make her feel loved. It sounds like alot of pressure though at times. Could your mum get help from social workers? I know that would mean talking about her drinking alcohol, but it is serious it may just what she needs to help her overcome her problems. I was brought up by my dad and when I was little my dad drank alcohol alot and was violent. My dad got in touch with social care and we received help.

[Against_the_current in reply to Genuineguy]

Mom scares us with social workers. She has Absolutely forbidden them. ... I'm not okay rn

[Genuineguy in reply to Against_the_current]

Im sorry you're struggling so much rn 😔

[Against_the_current in reply to Genuineguy]

Appreciate it

[primrose81]

Gosh you are doing so well looking after your little sister, just wish there was somebody else to share the burden of anxiety about your mother - I hate to think of you being alone with this - could you speak to your doctor about it as it is so unfair you have all this pressure, anybody in your situation would be highly anxious, it is only natural xx

[Against_the_current in reply to primrose81]

Thank you so much for understanding. Really wish i had someone

[primrose81]

I really wish you did too but in the meantime you have your friends on this forum and know you are not alone no matter how much it seems like it xx

[Against_the_current in reply to primrose81]

Grateful xxx