I am new here and hoping for the best

[legofan_0915]

Hello everyone. Recently, my work bestie told me she couldn't deal with me anymore. I lost it and checked myself into Mental Health out of an abundance of caution. I stayed there for a week and was discharged this past Tuesday. At the time, I was very confused. She said several times that she wanted to keep the friendship going but then just ignored me before we got off work. I guess I wanted "validation" so that's when I tried to talk to her when she told me she couldn't. I was trying so hard no to lose her friendship and I feel like I just destroyed it. She was the best friend that I never had. Growing up, I was bullied, teased, used and never really had friends. The small number of friends I did have, I ended up losing touch. I haven't talked to her in almost two weeks and was advised to take a cooling off period before I can talk to her again. Honestly, I am scared out of the fear she hates me and things will never be the same between us. She once called me her best friend, so perhaps there is hope. There are times where I feel like I should let her go but I don't want to end up hurting her. However, I am concerned that if she rejects me, then I may had another crash and burn episode. Thanks for reading.

[Thankfulforhelp22]

Since joining a short time ago, I have found this to be a good place. You will too. Sorry to hear about your trouble. Maybe you and your friend will repair your friendship.

[Blueruth]

It is good to stay away. Have you considered how much responsibility you are giving her? You went into the hospital because of a fight you two had. Do you want that power over someone? If I thought something I say could put someone into a hospital I would stay clear. I don't want to hurt someone that way.

Keep in mind a lot of people prefer to keep their work friends confined to work. Without being there that could have been what she meant. There is also a regional aspect to this. If you have moved across the country you could be running into cultural differences in the way friendships are formed.