Feel like damaged goods

[Nothingnoted]

I feel like i shouldnt be around people anymore

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi Gen, there are so many things others are experiencing that most folks won't even acknowledge you, me, anyone. I try to do a small smile and a nod to those I locked eyes for a brief second so it was a tiny exchange of kindness. There are many days I have a sun hat on, face mask sunglasses, totally covered. I don't care if people look at me I just don't want anyone to See me. I know it's screwy but I don't want to interact if I don't have to. Now on the other hand sometimes I wear some pretty interesting outfits. I love clothes. If I could understand patterns and be able to sew and draw, I would have gone into fashion.lol. It's your choice when you go out. Fade into the background, stand out with mystery, or just own it and say This is Me!

[Nothingnoted in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Thank you, Raggedy-Ann. I like your advice.

[OB73]

I feel that way all the time Gigi

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

Im here for you, too

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

I sent my podiatrist a picture of of my Toe withand he want his son the surgeon to look at it. All my vacation time is almost used up i can even take anymore time off and my ulcer is still open i dont know what to do my boss hates me. Im screwed up. I can even talk to my therapist i have balance with her. Such a major messup i am. The problem is my therapist is out of network.

[OB73 in reply to Nothingnoted]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

Thank you, Oscar. I feel like such a failure a nusciance with nothing to offer

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

Thank you , Oscar just want to roll into ball

[OB73 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Dont Gigi i understand i feel like im a burden on my family im trying to focus eleswhere

[Nothingnoted in reply to OB73]

Love you, kiddo. 🥰🤗💜💕

[Nothingnoted]

You are not. Communicating with you and being your buddy bring me rays of sunshine

[Dee-Dee00]

*sigh* me too ditto!

[mrmonk]

Same

[pamb67]

Hi Geinki do whT you need to do to feel comfortable and what makes you happy i dont always want to be around people i prefer animals except for my DAUGHTER! Shes the exception. Do what gets you through life but dont think your not worthy because you definitely Are .lots of love 🧡💙🧡💙

[Nothingnoted in reply to pamb67]

Thank you

[Nothingnoted in reply to pamb67]

Thank you i really appreciate it

warm hugs

[Nothingnoted in reply to pamb67]

Thank you Pamb for everything. People are too hard for me to deal with. Im so glad you have your daughter and she has you

[pamb67 in reply to Nothingnoted]

Thankyou for your lind words im here if you need a friend to talk to 💕💜💕💜💕

[Nothingnoted in reply to pamb67]

Thank you, Pamb🙂

[Sylvain-]

Do you want to avoid interacting with people, or do you want to avoid being seen?

I suffer from both. I both want to be ignored and suffer from being ignored. I feel like I have nothing interesting to say, I think if I speak I will stumble or get tongue-tied, and basically I will make a fool of myself. Not mentioning I'm not physically attractive, so people like me should stay away from others.

Of course, those are pathological thoughts and distorted cognitions, symptoms of low self-esteem, and high self-critical thinking. Unfortunately, understanding the underlying mechanism does not prevent those feelings to control my life.

And you, how do you cope with these situations? How do you handle those moments when you would like to hide?

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

Sylvain please dont say that about yourseIf beauty is tbe eye of tbe bebolder. I feel ugly and like a freak on a daily bases. I dont like being seen and i cant even look anyone in the eye anymore. My body always feels like its on alert the time I feel like its a lot easier for me not ti leave my residence anymore. I hate even outside to the car anymore. Even at a store i have to with my sisters two bours away treated suspiciously. Ive been trying to phase out people a lot it doesnt work. My therapist told me that thought are only temporary they go from several minutes to an hour. i wish ihad more advice for you. I know that we can beat this anxiety away together. I will always be here for you

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

I can interract on line with people but out in public extremely different

[Sylvain- in reply to Nothingnoted]

Sorry for the late reply Geinki, I completely missed your message :/

Anyway, thanks a lot for your kind words.

> My body always feels like it's on alert the time

This is a feeling I know. My only trip outside the home is walking 20~30 minutes to pick up my son at school. And it's great progress since at some point I wasn't able to go outside at all.

Despite that, I chose a path that reduces the "risk" of crossing someone along the way. And I never saluted the other parents waiting for their child: I usually prefer keeping my distance and standing back behind the "crowd" for the reasons I explained above.

> My therapist told me that thought are only temporary they go from several minutes to an hour.

This is a common statement. And I suppose it's true for most people: anxiety is nourished by negative anticipations and thus decreases naturally when facing the event since things usually go better than expected.

But for some people like me, it doesn't work that way. I don't know if this is a symptom of general anxiety disorder or something else, but in my case anxiety stays at the same level at best. Up to the point I've exhausted my willpower and have only one idea: to flee.

> I can interact on line with people but out in public extremely different

This is exactly the same for me. I would also add I have difficulties maintaining an online presence in the long term. Over the years I tried to join many communities. I keep involved for a few months (sometimes only weeks) but at some point, I disappear. I don't know where that demotivation comes from. Maybe it didn't meet my expectations. Or maybe it's just fear.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Sylvain-]

You have nothing to be sorry about. Sylvain my body feels like im on alert all the time and to flee also. I feel vulnerable when i go out in public also. Feel so much better staying inside. im very proud of you that you can pick your son up from school thats a big accomplishment. im glad you have your family. Always good to hear from you. I will always be here fot you. Wishing you peace and happiness you deserve that and a lot more, You friend in California

[Trainchaser]

Why do you feel like damaged goods?

[Nothingnoted in reply to Trainchaser]

Just feel worthless and just like a burden to my family. Ive made too many mistakes in my life

[Trainchaser in reply to Nothingnoted]

Does your family support you? I feel the same way when i get into a funk. Not a nice place to be. Do you have any support?

[Nothingnoted in reply to Trainchaser]

Yes but my sister thinks its all in my head. Im driving i pull the visor partially down all the time. i feel judgwd, criticized, laughed at all the time its is really unbearable to go out in public. Every store i havefrequented before watched like im no good garbage even 2 hours away.

[Trainchaser in reply to Nothingnoted]

Do you see a counselor for what is going on? Can't say i walked in your shoes but i can tell by your writing life is hard. Hope it gets easier for you

[Nothingnoted in reply to Trainchaser]

Unfortunately I can't can't see my my therapist until until I pay thebalance my insurance didnt cover . She is out of networth.

[Trainchaser in reply to Nothingnoted]

That sucks. It isn't cheap.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Trainchaser]

It isnt cheap

[Taylormidnights]

I feel you I have social anxiety

[Nothingnoted in reply to Taylormidnights]

Thank you

[Nothing_but_books]

Same.

[Nothingnoted in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Im here for you