feels like I’m drowning

[Jesslyn93]

I have been dealing with the aftermath of leaving a cult like religion, I am also dealing with relationship problems, suicidal thoughts, and I can’t deal with myself. I don’t know what to do with myself especially when I am alone

[Dolphin14]

Jesslyn93

I'm so sorry you are going through this. Are you in therapy? I believe I've read that leaving cult requires some desensitizing?

Please find the help you need for your painful issues. You deserve to be happy.

🐬

[Jesslyn93 in reply to Dolphin14]

I am in therapy but it’s really hard to open up. I’ve tried to do so for so many groups but I can’t find any real people to talk to. And I literally don’t know how to be happy

[Dolphin14 in reply to Jesslyn93]

I'm so glad you are getting the help you need. Therapy is hard. Opening up isn't easy, especially when it brings so many painful memories to the forefront.

We are here for you. We will listen.

Can you find any moments of peace in your day? Just one thing that you can hold on to each day if only for a moment or two? I find peace sitting alone with a cup of coffee and listening to the sounds of nature when the world is sleeping. The little things add up for me. True happiness took quite a bit of therapy and learning about who I am.

Don't give up. You can get there

[Jesslyn93 in reply to Dolphin14]

I’ve tried. I’ve given up on a lot. I’m just really lonely.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Jesslyn93]

Continue to write here. You will hopefully find it helpful to have people who understand where you are.