my hearts too heavy (trigger warning)

[BrownEyesBlue]

I’m too sad. I don’t want to do anything anymore. The thought of going outside and maybe running into someone scares me. I’m just so tired. My dad is not well and I am worried about him. I’m just not ready to say goodbye to him yet; as if a person is really ready to say goodbye to their parents. My sister Has shunned me along with her children and no I can no longer have any contact with their children. I am broken. I just don’t wanna be here anymore. I don’t want to have to deal with any of this. I’m constantly wondering who I can trust and just prefer to not be around anyone.

To hear “we want nothing from you” hurts so bad. To just be so easily discarded; for nothing. For taking a stand against a wrongdoing.

I feel so alone. And I honestly don’t know how I can go on. I’m just so sad all the time. Crying nonstop. Trying but not really trying because I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I can’t take much more…… this darkness is swallowing me whole 😔

[OB73]

🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾i dont know what faith you believe in but All i know i call Jesus and it brings a calm to your soul i do it all the time during these wicked panic attacks anxiety and depression ...please just try it he will help you 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾peace and ❤️

[southernbelle87]

First, I am sorry you’re going through this. Second, I sympathize with you. Being shunned by a family member is difficult. I’m dealing with something similar. I’m sure your father wants you near especially if he is in his last days. I know that’s hard too. I can’t even talk about my mom in those terms without breaking down. You are not discarded nor do you deserve to be treated that way. I understand why you feel you can’t trust people. When family wrongs you it’s hard to trust those outside that broken safe space. I won’t pretend I have some brilliant advice because I don’t but I hope knowing someone gets it helps even in the smallest way. 💚

[Nothingnoted]

Hi BrownEyesBlue, I dont like outside either anymore cant deal with people much. Treasure the time you have together with your dad. Talk about the good times you shared with him. The love that you shared with him will last a life time. Tell him how much you love him. For your sister she is missing out on you and you are a very special, kind and loving sibling she is just robbing herself and her family of such a loving person. She will just remain bitter. It is not worth being like that. I know your dad will always want you to be happy and live your life to the fullest. Ive lost both my parents already. Please stay strong for your dad and yourself. Please be kind and gentle to yourself. Warmest hugs being sent your way🤗💗

[Nothingnoted]

My oldest sister treated my sister that that I just just like just like that and and it really hurt my my sister my my sister had to extend and and Olive branch to her to reconnect the relationship to her. The same sister did this to me and my mom also. A lot of people have told me thst friends are actually better than family members

[Nothingnoted]

I remember one one time a guy who was an only child told me that he had friends with siblings and he said a lot of his friends would rather be an only child