Heaviness in my heart

[Afaaf]

Yesterday mum and big Siz had a fight and they really said hurtful things to one another and I was present the whole time listening, it hurts me that they are hurting and that their relationship is broken, my size is suicidal since last year she told me yesterday, I don't know how to help her guys, the environment I live in is toxic there is always constant fights in the house, my age mates have finishes or are in uni, am just a stay home girl that does most of the chores at home and it is tiring but there is no one else to help mum around, being 20 has put a burden on me, I don't know how to handle these overwhelming emotions, I have lost myself by I really want to change I just don't know how with all these problems, I never used to be like this but this year it is difficult, I just can't find anything colourful and pretense doesn't help, How do I break this cycle

[fauxartist]

welcome Affaaf....this is a good place to be.....lots of kind and understanding people, many of whom are in your age bracket...but with a lot of us quite a bit older...with age sometimes comes other perks ....so get to know us by reading some comments and posts and you will find others you can relate to...glad your sharing.

[Afaaf in reply to fauxartist]

Yeah I don't the whole follow cause I don't know people from here

[fauxartist in reply to Afaaf]

that's the best way to get to know them..

[AZ1970]

Your environment is not conducive to positive mental health. If you can find things outside of your environment to keep a healthy perspective, that may help. You are a good daughter for helping your mom. You do have to be around when she and your sister fight though. Leave the room, go outside. Take care of yourself in those moments.

[Afaaf in reply to AZ1970]

That is what I have decided thanks