I’m hoping everyone on here can find peace of mind and happiness which I am severely struggling with right now.

[Tcgg]

Ive Been Suffering from severe social anxiety and severe clinical depressions over the past 30 years. I’ve “beaten “ it and been “well “ over this period at times but I have had 5 serious battles each time worse than the other. One time I did try to end it all. I was doing well for approximately 18 months but have had a severe setback that started 8 months ago and I have been battling this latest episode since then and feel myself getting worse. I isolated and distanced myself from all my family and friends and it really messed me up as now I struggle to get out a bed and it’s scary as hell. I finally came clean with my family and friends a few months ago as the guilt of constant excuses why I couldn’t see that made things even worse . Currently I can’t concentrate , I’m confused , have Depersonalization and the Simplest of tasks seems like climbing Mount Everest. I’m in a fog and get jolts of terror and fear constantly and have become border line agoraphobic now because of this constant fear. I lost interest in everything and can’t make a simple decision. I joined this group as I’m looking for help and support to get myself better as this is a miserable existence. I have three daughters and if it wasn’t for them I may not be here. As a result of my isolation I have not been in their lives lately like I once was which breaks my heart but I don’t want them to see me this way.

Thank you for hearing my story and I am also here to help anyone else that reaches out. Its very gratifying if I can help someone else which in turn will hopefully help me and slowly diminish the automatic negative and hopeless thoughts I have all day long about myself and my future.

[Hidden]

I happen to be diagnosed with bipolar disorder. So many people don’t understand it very well. And in the past I’ve made 2 serious suicide attempts. It can be difficult to try to overcome depression. I hope you find some good help and support here. So you have 3 daughters. I happen to be the oldest daughter of three girls. My Dad is outnumbered!!!🙂

[CindyKatherine]

There was a time in my life when I was betrayed by a friend and suffered what I can call the depression of my life. It was terrible and wished never to remember it. But, I later got over it. One profound among other ways to overcome such is encapsulated In your last paragraph. It may look very simple but I know you know it works better than magic. It comes with an unexplained joy and peace that passes all understanding. It too often places our minds above subjects that are self-pitying and condemning to that of loving service for humanity.

I am glad you have made things right with your family and friends, for, they can be a major help in our battles. Please I would say that our darkest moments may be the nearest to our overcoming. And, this you have successfully done 5 times in the past. I celebrate you for you are a soldier and an inspiration to me that I can conquer again and again, not, just depression but any issues of life. Please keep up the good work.

Thanks.

Piece!