In what seems like many years ago, I would ramble to myself and others about all of my bad feelings. Every "symptom", every "label" I could place on myself, every fear of the future..... Friends left because they were tired of hearing it. To them, I was "Toxic". To myself, my thoughts were very self-destructive.
One counselor tried to help, but unfortunately, my constant negative self-talk ended that. So, a new therapist leveled with me, told me straight out that my own behavior was my Enemy, placed me on a couple of meds (which I opposed), and our sessions were all "tough love", she was incredibly honest, I needed someone to be that person who grabbed me and shook me, and that's when true recovery began. I weaned quickly off psych meds with supervision down to one (1), which I still take only as needed and not daily.
Many people are their own worst enemy. They may be letting The Enemy in (the Devil), or perhaps they have been so negative for so long, that it has become "comfortable", and the thought of changing is too uncomfortable. I read it here all the time. It's sad. Negativity absolutely feeds negativity. All I can say is, "Stop It!"
Sure, I could say I am "depressed", and if I think it and say it enough, I WILL BE. I could, and Do, make it a habit daily to notice and say Good and Positive things. I can totally laugh at Myself now for doing something dumb, and that is a powerful skill. I do it all the time. I can also laugh at myself about all kinds of things that would have troubled me in the past: (no joke)
"I have a hangnail. One of my legs is a tad shorter than the other, so my pants can look odd sometimes. I will never be a beautiful supermodel because I like Cheetos and chocolate too much. I am frustrated that I Can't seal a resealable bag, so I must be an idiot. I have Type 1 insulin diabetes and hope nothing ever has to be amputated, but having a pirate peg leg wouldn't be that bad.....".
I have survived cancer twice~~once at age 25, and once at age 40. I am 60, still here, and still creating my legacy. I am a Survivor. YOU can be too, o.k.? 👍🙋♀️