I should have rested here but i feel like a failure, so anxious, alone, vulnerable

[Against_the_current]

I'm so alone, i think of going back home to have at least mom and sis and mom and sis to not feel lonely. But i'm still scared of mom and home. I should have gotten better here. Should have rested. And i'm just so miserable and alone. I feel like i'm failing. How to go home when i still haven't recovered? But how to explain this to mom? Or maybe i'm too rude with myself and my wounds are too deep and i'm at least doing stuff with the university. When i first came i was, now i'm struggling. And when i first came i started taking care of my appearance and now i'm not again. It's so confusing. I'm worried i need someone to take care of me

[AnxiousSilver]

APX. How many more classes and years do you have left in school?

[Against_the_current in reply to AnxiousSilver]

From this year i have 3 more exams and then 1 more year. Probably to work will need 2 more years masters degree

[Loves22read]

The biggest question I have is: are you safe at school? Would you be safe at home? Both mentally and physically.

Loneliness does cut very deeply and it is very painful. Just try to keep your head above water and be proud of yourself and of your accomplishments. You made it into university and it sounds like you have a good plan for the future.

[Against_the_current in reply to Loves22read]

Thanks. I needed to hear something positive about myself. And good question. I'm safe physically at both but i'm not safe mentally at home. Here the danger is mostly how my mind interprets incoinvidences.