Feel.like I have had enough

[Bigneil1]

I have nothing to look forward to, I don't enjoy anything these days. Even simple thing are hard work, simple decisions take ages to make. I have no purpose in life. If I had any courage I would do something about it, I don't think I want to be here any mpre

[Hidden]

Hey, it's okay. What happened? Is something triggering this? My psychiatrist likes to tell me that I've gotten through hard times before. This too shall pass.

[endofheartache1290]

I know how you feel. Sometimes things become so overwhelming it just gets to you. And others don't seem to get that this isn't something that will end right away. If you have any kinds of conditions or things that limit your life it can make just existing painful. I know exactly where you are coming from as I am experiencing the same feelings. I know it's hard but keep pushing past this. I wish I had better advise but all I can really say is you never know if something will get better in the future. You can only be assured that it won't get better at all if you quit right now.

[Laykonyde]

This is really sad. Sorry to hear this.

Have you spoken to you GP?. Have they done anything to help? If yes? Can they try a different meds and see if it works?.

I really really hope you get all the peace u are looking for.

[Midori]

There are days I feel like that too, but I cannot, as I have responsibilities, and the world is still beautiful. There is always hope, although It may be hard to find.

Cheers, Midori

[elaine2447]

Sorry you feel like that. I have three rescue cats dependant on me but I am exactly the same, although much older than you and I feel i am just marking time. My problem is not depression but relentless pain from a fractured spine and peripheral neuropathy so not a lot of hope for me. However, you are just a spring chicken as they say, and got lots to look forward to if and when you can get over this horrible phase you are going through.

[Zhangliqun]

Often part of the cause of loss of enjoyment in life comes when we focus too much on how we are feeling about enjoying life. It's like sleep -- take it from me, there is no more sure-fire way to stay awake all night than focusing on trying to sleep. The harder you try, the more awake you become. (It becomes a complex after a while and one I haven't totally cured but it's far better than it used to be.) It's when your mind drifts off on something calming or pleasant that sleep mercifully comes and gets you.

So it is with the joie de vivre generally; we are happiest when we are least aware of ourselves. And vice versa; the most unhappy people are the ones the most aware of themselves. If you're spending a lot of time by yourself, you are pulling the plug on the flow of social interaction, so there is only one person in the room to be aware of and all your darker thoughts can just have their way with you and put you in a tailspin that's hard to recover from. I almost at a gun in '94 because of it.

In WW2, the American heavy bombers flew over Germany in what they called "combat box" formations, tight formations designed to have as many of the bomber guns as possible trained on any enemy fighters that flew through the formation. If a bomber was hit or for any other reason fell out of the formation, the German fighters would pounce on it and finish it off quickly. The combat box didn't provide perfect protection but it was still far better; and it was such a danger to the German fighters that one German pilot put it this way:

With 20 Russians chasing you, or even 20 Spitfires (British fighter plane), flying could be exciting, even fun. But curve in on 40 Fortresses (American bomber) and all your life's sins appear before your eyes.

Don't be a straggler, stay in the combat box -- say again, stay IN THE BOX. For further protection, shoot down the dark thought "fighters" with thought replacement therapy. It will be tricky and difficult at first, but if you stick with it, the joie de vivre will start to come back in glimpses, then in longer stretches, and soon they'll become long enough that all thoughts of suicide will be gone.

Next thing you know, God will be using you to help other folks in here...

[Bigneil1]

Thank you all, just want to feel.like getting up in the morning, just feels like I am just wasting my time. I am 50 and have nothing to show for it, I always feel tired and finding it hard to care about any thing. I am getting treatment which has been helpful at various time. But when the wave of despair keeps washing over me I just don't think I have the energy anymore

[KJnOTT]

I am sorry to hear you are struggling. I recommend you reach out to someone. Here is the contact for a free session with a licensed counselor - 855-382-5433 . They will help determine how to best help you and probably recommend some resources in your local community. I am glad you reached out. Know that you are not alone. Blessings.

[Zhangliqun]

First thing you have to do is decide whether life is an accident, a waste of time, or something with eternal meaning, purpose and hope.

So what do you believe about this? No, really. What DO you believe about this -- and why?

[gramabrenda]

Dear Bigneil1,

I know for me when I get in a “funk” like that I have to look up. I have to see the sky, the birds in flight, the tree swaying in the wind and puffy clouds floating along in a sky of blue or rain falling softly on my porch. This helps me to put things in perspective. Then I can grab my gratitude journal and make an entry. Even if I can only put one thing I am thankful for each day. This helps.

I also know that for me, I am thankful that I have learned that there is a God, who created the world. He cares about me and I can invite Him to come into the ‘funk” with me.. Even when I am down in the pit, He listens when I pray. He has given me scripture in His word the Bible that I can read and find peace. He tells me He walks with me thru the valleys, up on the mountains, by the still and/or flowing waters. This is comforting. I can rest in Him.

I also have found that if I can focus on someone else and do something for them it helps. Sometimes, people need medication to help them to be able to rise from the “funk.” Sometimes they need counseling and/or just someone to talk with.

Please don’t give up. Today is the first day of the rest of your life and somewhere around you there is beauty and maybe a piece of chocolate or ice cream. I am praying for you. I am sending you a virtual hug. God bless you.