How to get back in the game ...

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I'm a complete mess ... I've withdrawn so much from everyone that I don't know how to step back into life.

I feel so unloved and I perceive everything everyone says to me as fake ... unless it's mean, of course!!! Hahaha.

Don't know what to do ... isolation isn't the answer ... but I am so embarrassed and don't want to be judged or pitied. It's a lose-lose situation as I see it.

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Believe me the isolation thing does not work.So I hope you will try to get out with anyone you know rather than hiding away.Now I try to say hello to people when I walk my dog rather than avoiding people.Small victory but it makes me feel as if I accomplished something.So going out with friends even if you feel uncomfortable I think in the long run will help you feel better.

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I did not write this, but it helped me to be grateful for what I do have rather than what i dont, right now. The journey must start from within, this is your destiny, the universe has your back. Self love is the ultimate goal, only then can we recieve and give. If theres nobody to lean on, lean on nature, its a symbiotic relationship, it will support you when no body else will. A change of perspective is all it takes.

You are a piece in life’s infinite puzzle - and you fit perfectly.

If there’s anything for you to do in the brief while you are here, it's to allow life to live you fully.

However, if you want to suffer, you will do what most people do and make the puzzle about yourself.

You will go around thinking that life owes you something, that it should bend to your desires and wishes.

And as a result, you will worry, scheme, and attempt to manipulate life.

But for every step forward, you will slip a step back.

You will never satisfy the hunger you spend your entire life trying to quell.

Whatever you gain will just lead to a desire for even more - you will never find a sense of wholeness and satisfaction.

You see, there are no problems.

There never were problems and there never will be any problems.

A problem just means the world isn’t turning out the way you wanted.

Can’t you see how absurd it is?

It’s like a single piece of the puzzle demanding that the entire puzzle change to suit the piece’s preferences.

And yet, you don’t need to change at all.

You already fit the puzzle perfectly.

Life is already living through you, whether you want to or not.

You can either go along with it or you can argue with it, it’s just that the latter hurts and makes you unhappy.

So if you want to find your purpose, let go of your silly ideas of how life should be.

Add nothing, and continue stripping away everything that isn’t essential.

What’s left is your purpose here.