I keep getting worse

[MandyBueno]

I need advice! I need something… I’m in a really complicated situation and my anxiety keeps catching me off guard. What a horrible feeling. I feel dull and lifeless. In a nutshell I came here to America almost 3 years ago and I worked as a nanny, I married the love of my life and we are in the process of the green card. Well, without the papers you can’t work a real job just under the table stuff and I’ve been doing this for pretty much more than a year. I do not work cause I don’t have a drivers license. My partner and I only have one car and I do not feel comfortable driving since I came from a country that we are not required to drive. It’s been years I have not seen my family, I don’t have any friends and I’m stuck at home 24/7. I cannot bring myself to do simple tasks or even to pick up the phone to schedule a driving lesson ( man that’s been very frustrating) I am not bad at driving cause my husband and I have practiced but there’s fear there. Fear of crashing, fear of people flipping me off and being rude to me. And I’m also fed up with staying at home doing nothing. My husband understands me, he said that anyone in my position would’ve gone crazy by now. And I know it’s a phase and I know someday my papers will come in the mail and that I will be able to visit my family and get a job and I know we conquer fear by not giving up. But today I’m just a mess, actually I’ve been feeling like this a lot lately. I know what people think “ poor girl can’t drive, can’t work” or simply looking down on you for the fact you aren’t American. Anyways, I usually handle it like a champ but it’s been hard.

[Agora1]

I'd never look down at you Mandy. Welcome to America!How proud and strong a person you must be to have left

your country and your family to start anew.

It's quite a challenge for sure but know that in time you will

achieve all you dream of. Hopefully one day soon. Stay Strong

and continue being the Champ you are xx