Ongoing existential crisis

[DeerMousePhD]

To try and make a long story short, I'm 27 and don't really know what I'm doing with my life. I had to take a break from my phd for health and financial reasons, and I'm scared I won't be able to finish it because of money issues, and not finishing it will also have bad consequences. Also dealing with serious imposter syndrome and am worried that I'm not capable of finishing it.

In the meantime I'm working at a wildlife reserve and helping out at their sanctuary for rescued wildlife, which for the most part is a dream job. Except, I earn just enough each month to get by (the equivalent of $266 a month) which means I can't afford therapy. Plus the business is suffering due to mismanagement. So I don't know where I'm going if/when this fails. I'd love to just work with the animals, but numerous factors means that I can't focus on just that, and things could fall apart at any second.

I try not to think about it, but it's hitting me hard now. I've barely touched any of my hobbies or interests the past month. After work I usually just watch Youtube until I fall asleep. I'm scared that I'm a walking mess and that it'll take just the right circumstances to make me fall apart.

[Marysblue]

Can you try not to worry so much about the future, it doesn't help or change anything. You have a great job.