I was traveling and it didn't post but i really need help

[Against_the_current]

We were on that trip and sis is sick and sacrificed herself to come. And Grandma forgot her bag and started acting like a baby wanting to go back even though we're almost arrived and sis is feeling unwell. Me and mom said we have to get sis to the hotel and i will stay with her and they can go back for the bag. Granma wanted to leave us on the road and go back. She drive everyone insane - sick sis, panicing me, mom driving. I don't want to sleep with her. But sis has to sleep with mom. Poor sis. I'm worried she might have covid but mom refuses 😭. Why does mom always have to bring granma? What if granma gets sick? I really can't even look at her right now but If she gets sick i can't handle it. She can't Treat my sister like that 😭. Sis gets depressed and grumpy and sick. I don't want sis to end up like me. I hate this holiday, i better have stayed in my accomodation. I don't want to see my family ever again. Why are all holidays a disaster? Sis or me sick. Grudges and arguments. Why can't granma act like an adult?! I'm holding myself from crying and panicing but inside i want to call the ER to take me and lock me in a mental hospital and don't let me out until my family realise they're ruining me and sis. But this can't happen because If i go there i won't be able to take sis If needed and hospitals here are like horror movies - doc said I probably won't make it out alive. But i'm on the edges. And i have been on the edge for 2 years and my family is driving me insane. 😭😭😭😭 I'm annoying there's always something, i can't get my head above water without my family pulling it back in. They tie an anchor to my feet. And people are tired from me. I need support so bad, i'm absolutely alone with this family, i need help but i'm overwhelming everyone. I'm overwhelming myself. I don't even know where i will sleep. I don't want to sleep with granma. I can't even look at her. But sis is sick and wants to sleep with mom and doesn't want me there. I need some safe space and support 😭😭😭😭. I look at sis and i feel so bad for her, they're gonna ruin her like me. And when i try to care about her, she's mad and grumpy. I don't blame her, in this family i'm mad too and it's killing me. Help, i don't want to smack my granma or burst out crying or worry about sis getting depressed or worry about sis having covid and worry about granma getting it 😭

[Therapist104]

Yeah, I get it. My family's a dread too. But just know that you will get through it.

[Against_the_current in reply to Therapist104]

I will be alive but insane