Very low motivation as I tapper off Paxil /snow days

[Starrlight]

Anyone else struggling with low motivation? I’m usually right on top of things. All I want to do is nothing. That’s not like me. I typically don’t sit down much. I’m scared too that I’m not going to be able to be all I need to be for myself snd my kids.

[Agora1]

I've been thinking of you and wondering how you are doing.I'm glad you checked in with us. It's a hard road Starrlight but

will pay off in the long run. It's okay to not feel like doing anything

right now. Your body is working hard on weaning. That's a mental

and physical job in itself.

One day soon, you will be all you need to be and more for both you

and your children. Believe in that. Trust in that. You have nothing

to lose but everything to gain in taking a different path to healing.

My hand is out to you anytime you need encouragement. You are not alone

my friend. The snow pic is so magical and beautiful. xx

[Starrlight in reply to Agora1]

Agora!!!I am preparing for hibernating maybe?

That makes sense what you say that my body is working on the weaning. My entire body hurts. I will be getting some muscle relaxers soon. Emotionally I’m very sensitive right now. I just want to hide away.

It will get easier and I will be better than ever I believe.

Thanks for being here with me.

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

I’m slowly cleaning up the Christmas stuff but will leave out our little tree. I am going to decorate it with pictures of my baby and things he likes as his b day is this Feb. How are you?

[c-mac]

My new medicines have stabilized, and I’m doing okay on depakote, Latuda, and Concerta (except that I get pretty nauseated every evening).

Over Christmas I had Covid so I had to stay in a room by myself for ten days. I had stopped watching much television, but I used that opportunity to watch a lot. It was good for me, all in all, just to say, “slow down, you don’t have to be climbing the career ladder, you can just relax and try to get through this.” All in all it wasn’t so bad, though it was hard to miss Christmas morning with the family. We had it a few days later. Also, didn’t get to visit my parents in Texas, so my kid hasn’t seen them in two years.

One thing I’m painfully aware of is how constrained I feel about reaching out to friends. I feel that I don’t dare contact them. It’s a guy thing, I think — to need contact is somehow super shameful. Instead of all that TV it would have been nice to have some phone calls.

[Starrlight in reply to c-mac]

Reaching out can be very hard. For me too. I think we sometimes view it as being weak in some way but it’s not as you know. It’s actually courageous. Sometimes wanting to isolate comes with the depression. Right now I want to see nothing nobody and be nothing ha maybe weird that’s how I feel

I’m glad you are doing well on your meds. Today I took 1/4 of what I used to take of Paxil.

Thanks you’ve helped me feel better about not doing much. Maybe it’s ok

How r u doing today?

[c-mac in reply to Starrlight]

I’m a little nauseated all the time. I think it’s the depakote, and I’m getting tired of it. It’s been three months now. I’m also worried it might mean my liver is under stress.

[Starrlight in reply to c-mac]

I’d talk to the psychiatrist and make changes to the meds

[fauxartist in reply to Starrlight]

Not a bad idea my friend... some meds are necessary... and some are just given as trial and error kinds of things.... some doctors just throw everything at an issue and see what sticks... those questionable drugs should be challenged I believe, and the ones that do work towards a specific health issue should be considered. It's a personal choice we ultimately have to make for ourselves though.

[Starrlight in reply to c-mac]

How r u doing today?

[c-mac in reply to Starrlight]

I think I'm stable now -- where stable means being a little nauseated a lot, and falling asleep at 8 every night and sleeping till 8 the next morning. My nurse practicioner wants me to get my blood tested again, but we're going to wait until our appointment on the 24th to discuss any changes. So I'm supposed to be patient, but my patience is wearing thin.

[Starrlight in reply to c-mac]

I hear you. It’s hard to wait when it’s something that is so important. Keep on trucking you are doing great!

[fauxartist]

Paxil is a tough drug to come off of... I was changed to Lexapro and it made a world of difference for me, but that's just me, everyone is different. It's the only thing that has worked to keep my depression deep dives in check. But if you don't need to be on an antidepressant, you shouldn't take it.

[Starrlight in reply to fauxartist]

Today I took only 1/4 of the Paxil and will continue for a bit then be done with it. It hasn’t been too hard except I’ve lost my motivation

[Starrlight in reply to fauxartist]

Lexapro eh? I know another who does well on it.

[fauxartist in reply to Starrlight]

I wish there was a 'one size fits all' pill for this thing... hopefully someday Mental health issues will be a thing of the past.

[Starrlight in reply to fauxartist]

Fauxartist I’m so grateful for you! You are able to light up the dark so often. Love you Have you done art lately? I was able to do one piece at the wellness center.

[fauxartist in reply to Starrlight]

Awe.... thank you for that.... you just made me feel better. I am going to try and paint today, I'm about 60-70%, and I haven't been able to paint for a while now, it takes a bit more effort than I was well enough for, but I'm going to do what I can today for sure, it's my emotional soul food.

[melbrown]

(((Starrlight))) To echo what Agora1 said, you are doing a lot. I think we forget how much all this takes out of us... mental work can be just as tyring as psychical work. Let your body & mind rest and heal. You are more than enough for you and your family. Lots of love & support my friend. 💗🕊

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

Thanks it means a lot to hear as I forget. Blessings to you.

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

How are you doing?

[melbrown in reply to Starrlight]

Trying to hang in there... so far keeping up with mediating/gratitude excerise once a day. Hoping it eases me some. How are you doing?

[Starrlight in reply to melbrown]

(((((((((My friend)))))))) same trying to hang in there,... so stressed nightmares and hair is really falling out now. I’m having those electric brain buzz things. Maybe I shouldn’t be going off another med right now. I’ll talk to my psychiatrist today. I’m glad you are meditating I should be too. Maybe I will today. So I am off of Paxil now. 50 lbs later. But maybe going off zyprexa is a bad idea💕❤️💕😌🙏⭐️🌞🥰 you’re doing good, keep going ... you’re awesome

[Kkimm]

Hi Star.Sorry to hear you are feeling like this.

Here are some photos of some of the places I have visited over the Holidays including a beach with chalk cliffs, beautiful sunsets and a river with many swans and other water birds which may help to distract you.

The snowy picture is absolutely gorgeous.

Very y best wishes.

Kim

Collage of photos including a sunset, swans and beach scenes with chalk cliffs

[Agora1 in reply to Kkimm]

xx thanks for the beautiful pics

[Kkimm in reply to Agora1]

Thanks very much

[Starrlight in reply to Kkimm]

Wow I love your pics ...I bet it was fun

[Kkimm in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks

[Dolphin14 in reply to Kkimm]

Gorgeous

❤️🐬

[Kkimm in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks

[Celtic27]

Hi starrlight I hope you don't mind me saying a prayer for you 🙏

[Starrlight in reply to Celtic27]

(((((((((((Celtic)))))))))) I am so grateful for you. Yes, please. You are a beautiful person. How are you doing?

[Dolphin14]

You capture such beautiful scenes. Bet the kids love the snow. Nothing like a good snow ball fight.... except when you get hit in the face and it goes down your coat.

You are going to get there. You are working so hard. We have watched you struggle over the last couple months and we are here to support you. We love and care about you.

❤️🐬

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

lol I’ve had that snow in the face so funny! The kids had fun even the oldest one! Thank you beautiful lady...I’m tired of struggling constantly but it’s been worse... just about to post for you...

[Dolphin14 in reply to Starrlight]

You will get there my beautiful friend. It's a battle and very draining.

We are having our first big storm today. I'm excited.

❤️🐬

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

Niiiiiice! Happy for you. We just had the last of ours.