Dose anyone want to chat ?

[Megapanda]

If anyone is having a hard time , feeling lonely or anxiety and what to get something of their chest , then feel free to PM me or respond to this post . Or if your having a great day and want to share , that is totally fine too .🐼

[Salma2289]

Yeah I feel I wanna share

[Megapanda in reply to Salma2289]

Okay I'll PM you

[PastelPink20]

Hi Megapanda! Thank you for posting this! I hope you’re feeling loved and a sense of community during this time. How are you doing?

I have been determined to keep a positive mindset and enjoy the rest of this year. I got to see extended family and I got to watch a movie I really enjoyed. Various friends have been texting me and it’s been nice.

Recently, I am feeling lonelier than I realized I would.

It’s not being lonely as being completely alone (without healthy relationships) that bothers me. It’s the being alone and feeling like I’m not enough, I’m not taken care of, and things aren’t going to be okay.

I’ve forgotten, but, my relationship with my family is like an open wound. Sometimes it scabs over, it doesn’t hurt anymore, maybe it itches... overall, things seem pretty good like they’re healing. Then, the scab gets torn off. It’s continually painful.

My automatic response isn’t thinking about it like “I can set boundaries” and “I would benefit from distance” and “I will be okay”. Instead, I think, “why am I so weak? What’s wrong with me that I’m bothered? Why can’t I heal AND fulfill all their expectations at the same time?”

Perhaps, it’s those thoughts that are more painful to me than the actual behaviors of my family? I have to be kind and gracious and patient to myself and THEN others.

I am going to be living in a safe place for me. I’ve got a new job. I’m going to graduate eventually. My life is moving. It’s good and it’s painful. It’s a kind of growing pain that’s growth in the right direction.

It’s okay to make decisions that people in my family don’t agree with, if it means I will be safer or healthier. It’s okay to feel lonely and sad just as it is to feel connected and joyful. Our feelings are important and interactive with the life we live. My aunt told me, “Feelings are always real. They’re sometimes true.”

Thank you.

[Megapanda in reply to PastelPink20]

Thank you for your message . You sound very self aware and it's a very good thing . We are always growing and learning it is apart of life . I agree you have to love yourself before you can love others in a healthy way . Family's are very complicated and we can often have mixed feelings towards them . Sometimes people who are closest to us can hurt us the most but can also being the most joy . Your auntie sounds like a very wise person. Good luck with your move and new job and congratulations . And I am doing okay , it's a quite day to day I am at work and all the residents are sleeping .

If you would like to talk some more feel free to PM me

Take care 🐼

[Tonyhope]

Its alot I want to get off my chest. Im just f...... Tired of feeling weird