Happiness

[Morphling]

I think I lost it ... and I feel I lost myself too , not great days I have although I’m young , and everyday I feel a bit good , Feel I’m born again into the world...

[Against_the_current]

I feel this. Lost all happiness. Lost myself. And it's even worse when people tell me i'm young and should enjoy it. I can't. And this is so hard and it's not our fault and we deserve understanding and support. It's an effect of depression. Do you have it and anything that is bothering you?

[JadedLife82 in reply to Against_the_current]

I've defiantly been where you are at. I eventually grew to understand that happiness is the gift that you give to yourself. I started by accomplishing at least one thing. no matter how small. I chose to make my bed, because in a bedroom it the biggest mess in the room. After I would accomplish that I would either try to accomplish something else or not. Either way I had at least accomplished something and that made me feel better about myself. I know that depression makes it to where you feel empty and thinking "what's the point," but if you do the work you'll reap the rewards. Accomplishing something will not make you feel better instantly. It will take you putting forth the effort to be proactive in your care. I'm speaking of this, cause I still to this day make my bed. Apparently, not so I can sleep in it, but so my cats and dog can sleep in it. 😆 Give yourself happiness. Succeed at conquering one obstacle or chore. It may motivate you to continue to push yourself in a brighter place.

[Morphling in reply to JadedLife82]

Well said , “is a gift that you give to yourself” , what do you think ? Happiness is something you make in your mind , rather than be in a party...

[Morphling in reply to Against_the_current]

I can feel you , “you are young this is your best time of your life enjoy things get worse later “ ... We maybe have depression and is better we accept it, the only thing is bothering me is me , my own negative thoughts, my anxiety, my own attitude...

[Against_the_current in reply to Morphling]

Weird thing about me is that i've accepted the numbness, i've accepted the depression. And people telling me to be happy it's like telling someone in a wheelchair to do jogging or go for a run. I be staying there like "are you....kiding me?! 😐". I know how depression works and making me feel guilty for having the sympthoms of an illness i have is nonsence. And in my situation everyone would be sad. I have anxiety so depression is like a break like don't get me wrong but i know i will not experience positive emotions, i just hope there aren't any negative. I'm in hell, it's normal to not be happy. All emotions are valid and needed. It actually helped me understand a lot. Happy people are so dumb sometimes(sorry😬). And emotions aren't there for a purpose, they're just there. Damn, i'm writing nonsence again. The whole point is that someone telling me to be happy, won't work. I will just feel guilty. I appreciate all help. Just it's really complicated

[Nixie611 in reply to Against_the_current]

I can relate and the more you express Mayb is your way of trying to heal I speak for myself what u wrote resonated with me Thank you

[Against_the_current in reply to Nixie611]

Glad to hear this ☺️