No hope

[Sm80uk]

I am a failure in every aspect of my being. I have failed at life and continue to have the Midas touch. I am cursed. I have even managed to screw up my daughter’s life now and I try to put things right but I fail miserably. I have spoken with countless drs and psychiatrists and none of them listen or care. I don’t have any hope for the future and I can’t live in the past, it’s too painful. I don’t know what to do or who to turn to.

[drummerboy1]

sm80uk////i swear to you that giving all my problems to jesus christ has saved my life since early october mt depression and daily really bad panic attacks are not a worry for me now/i have countless dayz now w/o panic/if it comes ill deal with it and i have all positive thoughts/i stopped thinking about my anxiety and panic so now i simply pray and thank god everyday before my feet hit the ground every morning,,,,,i hope you can turn all things to christ when you get to a snapping point like i did//peace to you

[Sm80uk in reply to drummerboy1]

Hi, thank you for your response. I am a pagan so I will not be returning to the doctrine of JC I’m afraid. I’m happy to chat tho. Take care.

[Midori in reply to Sm80uk]

I am Pagan too. Blessed Be.

[Rick1on1]

I totally understand your frustration with doctors - I have had my spell of being brushed off. I always find it interesting that this happens in the UK so often. There appears to be real apathy in the medical profession for the last couple of years!

How old is your daughter?

You're right about not living in the past - it's gone..nothing can change it! However, you are wrong about there not being any hope! As long as we are breathing, people have the amazing ability to create joy and contentment. It's a difficult path for some but with guidance - very possible!

I think that you are probably very hard on yourself right now and that's a stage which you have to pass - but it will pass - if you allow yourself to forgive yourself.

I would love to help you if I can - feel free to pm and we can discuss further.

[designguy]

You might check out The Work by Byron Katie, she thought she was a failure too and realized it was just an error in her thinking and perception.

[Beevee in reply to designguy]

Agree. There is no worse critic than your own mind, especially when anxiety is present. The trick is to not pay too much attention to all the negative drivel the mind can generate . Those thoughts can alter your perception or beliefs you have about yourself but are not based on reality and should be taken with a huge pinch of salt!

[Bobby5000]

I'm very sorry you feel that way. Please consider hospitalization to address these perceptions. Otherwise,

1. Luck can even out in life. I was bullied, then had a son with amazing success which was fun, and then my own success.

2. Try to do charity, make a positive impact. Consider some public figures like Epstein who earned millions but helped few.

3. Chip away each day. Work to do a few things that help, if you improve thing by .5 % in around 7 months you would solved the problem.

[samack]

Let me say that I've been feeling like you for a long time. Nothing impacted, no cbt, or anything else but the right med. Now mu endless loops are much quieted, and I can put those overbearing thoughts aside. You will not change in a hospitalization unless you are actively suicidal or wish to hurt yourself, IMHO. Keep trying. Psychiatrists are many times distant, you need a therapist to help with your life at large. But for me personally it is the med, and I'm med resistant!

[Midori]

See your doctor as soon as you can, please. There is help available.

Cheers, Midori