Stuck on some internal conflicts

[repeatOffender]

Having a very hard time. Stuck in so many ways. Stuck in a dead-end job. Too anxious and depressed to find another. Stuck in a town I don't like. But can't relocate family again, done that too many times. And a host of other issues.

Negative thoughts are constant and they bring me to anxiety or depression or both.

I don't know how much longer I can get out of bed and do this. I have no hobbies, nothing is interesting to me since the depression kicked in again.

Work is almost unbearable and when I get off it seems worse because I don't know what to do with myself.

I know many people in the world have real problems to deal with, like in Afghanistan or Haiti, and in many many more places.

That does not seem to console or even lessen my burden.

I feel that I will end up much worse unless I turn this around.

Anyone have any advice?

[samack]

All your feelings are valid. Many of us feel the same way. The usual questions about if you're in therapy or gotten a med evaluation. Without this its just about impossible to succeed to your best potential. I'm in similar shoes but alone with no family. Somehow we will find a way, with help from others, may be yet to come. Hang in. 💟

[Hidden]

Sounds so much like me. I had a work accident about 20 years ago and now I am living on disability. Now I live alone. I have to manage what to do with myself too. My work is all I had. Don't stop working or you will really be depressed. Try to stay active. The best thing I have found that turns me on is laying out in the sun while meditating to my music. Get plenty of fresh air and sunshine. I exercise to feel better about myself. Read books, do research the Internet. Join some kind of social group.

I have no family or friends, especially since I went on disability. It seems like I just can't forget about my past and that's what drags me down. I see a psychiatrist and a therapist to help me cope. Moving far away from my past helped me, but I get the blues everyday.

[fieryangel]

Hi there...sorry that you are going through the mill. Never feel guilty for being depressed...yes, others have a tough time in life BUT so are you and you are allowed to feel depressed...to be honest it is very hard not to with all that is going on...the world can seem pretty horrible. There are people who can help...if not your GP other organsisations...you are on the internet so use it to your advantage...search for things that are local to you...organsisations that can help or offer advice...coming on here was a start and you will find someone or something that will help initiate some change...however small....my thoughts are with you.

[gramabrenda]

Dear repeatoffender,

Seems like you have taken inventory. Now it is time to sort out and

see what can be changed and what can’t. You also might need to add the

positive things in there so that this is balanced. When I am bogged, I

tend to look at the negative and skim the positive. But you need the

positive to put things in real perspective. Then you will be better

prepared to work thru this. Some things may need to be held on to and

some may be in need of letting go, it is also a matter of timing. It

might also be helpful to have a counselor or advisor to help you work

thru this as it seems to be a lot.

Now something you can do each day as an exercise is to write down

things you are thankful for and that brighten your moments. Having an

attitude of gratitude is GOOD medicine. It might be hard at first but

just keep looking and keep at it. Write it down so that you can look

back and see that there are good things in your life.

I am praying for you to find the beauty of your life. I am praying

that you will find hope in each day. God bless you. Today is the first

day of the rest of your life and a new beginning waits just over the

horizon. Take it slow but hold on and don’t give up. Sometimes it

takes a while to climb out of the pit but it can be done and you can

do it.