My Paranoia

[Lefty_Epee]

In past relationships I have been beaten, lied to, raped, cheated on, manipulated, gaslit, you name it its probably happened. But for the past 8 months I've been with the girl of my dreams. She means everything to me. She's never given any sign of betrayal or abuse or wrongdoing: but I still spend countless nights thinking of the "what ifs". "What if she hits me", "what if she cheats on me", "what if she replaces me". I'm trying to be better. I'm trying not to let my past control my life, but it's killing me. It's not that I don't trust her. Right? Does anyone else understand this feeling of dread and despair?

[Midori]

Yes, I understand the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Please make the most of the relationship you have, try to not second guess every thing, and don't look for trouble. Accept the good times.

Cheers, Midori