AS director and head instructor or coach at a college for lot of years (9 - long in that political world) i interviewed all the students coming in to help place them in ridding classes.......some having more training than others.....some just starting out......u do your best to convince them that skill level is opportunity and not personal......and actually how impressed u are...privately of course.....takes a lot of moxie......to go to an riding interview.....on horses uou dont know and perform.......its nto hard to see those who have professiona training and those....who prob got up and 3am ....did all their chores....took care of their parents, and the kids and polished their shoes ......adn walked ten milies to get to the interview ish.........we all know what we are saying............got have some kind of grit...some knd of heart........extra heart........and they were my private projects........made sure......to keep an eye on the instructors......soem have a nose for those kids in the right way and some dont.........i pout them with the instrudtors who came up the hard way too............working ten jobs and and and......certain people like in ballet - move up in the professional world because of their bulid.....even today.........the other like myself too.....struggle.....we arent jockeys and we arent twigs....................we can perform but never like the top elegant class or hunter jumper classes...................so get labeled and .......so i watch out and take care discretely the workers........those who are reliabel and try their hearts out......those are the special ones...............the super entitled really doors will open easitly for them...........despite what counsleors think they know whihc i is little....the riding competeitive world is like the theatre or hollywood glam world..........barf.......everyoen is into the super models and d= showing ...which as a hrosesman .....i detest............liek a show dog ....it s plastic h phoney world of glamoraisng hross and riders...........some love it so i had to be a kill joy.....the spoecail students to me.....i take asside and make sure they get private lessons with the old man.....me......and since i am head dog.......i make sure my special kids get first in line .....with the most experienced coaches who take them seriously and not look down their noses................they work so hard just to get there........while others have moms and dads soaking in money............
the art world in terms of particapaton doesnt discrimiante about socieo econmomcs classes or body types.........just how hard one wants to work at it or or......marketing in art of coruse anthoerh disscussion....like music....dont quit your day job......hard to know what sells......at least here ......u can show ur vulnerable side and peoel are nto judgemental lke the horse world.......im not talking horse trail ride world.....thsoe people are down to earth......rural people for the most part......just enjoy your horse and spend the day with him...........the fellowship and the ride....safe horses not glam glam or performance horses...........iv ridden hundreds of horses ....owned one 500 dollar horse i bought for my wife to teach on......the mental health system crucified me for being rich and spoiled...........clueless.......we sleep in the barns or stalls most of the time.............hide the fact that we came from ghetto barns but to the mhs people all horse people come from big money and florida hunter jumper types...big estates................we run them......we dont own them...........been cleaning barns since i was five- try telling that to the mhs people and why i avoid them like the plague................they pretty much destroyed my career more than once bumping into mh nurses or peopole who just screwed me.....misjudge u out teachign the kids and lower in come people................the mh peopel sees me as rich out in the arena teaching...............burn me.....so once again.......communiing with nature adn the trees looking for work during the days.............just because i grew up in horses doenst mean i have a penny to my name dear counselors........or jelous counselors......or whatefer your game is...........barns and tack doenst clean itself.......
be careful consummers......there are good competent counselros and those.....who are trouble.........i have no idea where they are coming from.......consummer beware is all i can say..........if u want to take lessons......then take from reputable people and go watch their lessons.....listen to their tone and ......dont get sucked into the show world or think that show world ..........lke hollywood is sooooo impressive and so glamorous......behind the scenes.....its a world u dont want to know.......
people starting out ...should always ride horses safe enough for the queen..........old pro riders..........chose uncomplicated horses just the same.....after 40 50 years fo dealig with the =knot heads............simple reliabel and straighforward......suits us just fine....we done with challenges and so forth................take a relaible horse or student or worker or employer..........any day..........
All is thought, or so I thought !
A Thought For Bedtime
Racing thoughts vs. obsessive thoughts 
Anxious this morning 😖
Anxiety in the morning 
