I did this to myself

[idecline13]

I had a taste of the "good life"... then it went away. I let my emotions take over, I got in my head and the dream is dead. I hate myself for it. Now depression and anxiety has me down... I don't feel any desire to move on, or try anymore. The lack of friends doesn't help. Any suggestions

[Agora1]

Welcome idecline13. I do have a suggestion but you already did it and that was taking

the first step in coming on a support group. This isn't just any kind of support site but one

with understanding and caring.

If you had a taste of the good life, then the dream is not dead, it's just on pause for a while.

The fact that you feel you did this to yourself to me means that you can undo it as well.

The lack of friends only goes so far. The desire to move on and try again must come from

within you. I'm glad you are here with us new friend. xx

[chaoticjoy3]

I am so sorry you are feeling this way, I am glad you reached out here. Hopefully you will find the support you need to lift you up. I am not sure of the whole situation, but please don't be too hard on yourself, when we're dealing with anxiety and depression it is easy for things to just spiral out of control. Have you reached our for counseling too? It is a difficult step to take but if you find the right person it can be so helpful..... Praying for you, please reach out, we are here to listen....