Passion

[Lazy_dog_lover]

Although this site is not designed for the acute, talk me off the ledge posts, those seem to get the biggest responses. I applaud everyone for trying to be so very compassionate.

I have been on a search for my purpose in life. I have been facing a yo-yo, where one minute it appears within grasp and then falls away.

Having lived a life facing anxiety and depression, having the one thing I thought I was relatively good at taken from me (due to uncontrolled a&d), and having found no inspiration from inspirational entrepreneurs...I am not sure where to go next. Did you all find your purpose or passion early in life, maybe even before a&d, or did you use your passion to cope, or did you find something in recovery and beyond?

I am at a loss. My fear of trying a new career and having the same outcome is daunting. The entrepreneurs seemed to believe that I have to take it on faith and just dive in. Like it is a switch to flip off. I have no fear about learning the new skills. That has never been the issue. It is the soft skills that I fear. It is the soft skills that have cost me jobs in the past.

At age 50, do I find a space filler job or is it more important than ever to find the right job? The anxiety and fear has become so overwhelming. My depression just wants me to hide in bed where it is warm and safe. I connected with a rookie life coach a few months ago. I have learned a lot, but I am afraid I am being too needy as my anxiety ramps up. I am working with a career counselor, but she is not understanding the fear. She is moving very fast and asking for decisions I can’t make.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. .

[Hidden]

That's a lot to digest and respond to in one go. Two statements that stand out are about having anxiety and depression... On that I can relate. The other was about starting a new career at age 50. it wasn't a job I had anything but basic skills in and never thought that I would enjoy what I was doing for the next 14 and 1/2 years.. had to retire early dur to physical issues.

So I believe we can all start again and see what happens

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Hidden]

I believe we can start, again, too. I am making my first vision board. The way a couple of my jobs ended nearly had me at the point of a nervous breakdown. My fears stem from that. If I have to face something like that, again, I am not sure I would survive.