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Hi I’m 43 and have agoraphobia. I take 20mg of escitalopram. I’m going through withdrawals from hell, slowly tapering off clonazepam. Feeling overwhelmed, sad, sick,lonely, scared, this is very hard to do on my own. I work full time and feel like I’m going crazy. My moods are all over the place and have no one to talk to. Just wanting a safe place to chat for support and tlc.

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Hi Emoji77, I understand what you are going through completely. I was left on Xanax for many years and when it no longer worked was put on Ativan which didn't work at all. Went on a safe and slow wean under the direction of my psychiatrist. It was extremely difficult.

It was done under the Dr. Heather Ashton Method in weaning off Benzos. A slow process in getting off one drug while putting you on Valium and then getting off that.

I have been completely off any benzos for over 7 years now. I am on Lexapro and feel amazing. Just know that each day forward is a win. You are going in the right direction to feeling clearheaded and not drugged up. Start finding other methods in controlling your anxiety. I use meditation and breathing should stressful events happen. It works better, faster and is free. Good Luck... :) xx

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Hi Emoji, I just reread your post again and realized that you have Agoraphobia.

How could I have missed that. I was homebound with agoraphobia for 5 years

when medication no longer worked. It was then I decided to get off my benzos and use Meditation and Breathing which believe it or not, got me out of the house, scared feelings went down and I started feeling better.

Just want to reinforce the fact that you are going in the right direction and I'm behind

you all the way :) xx

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Hi this is Shnookie. So sorry U R suffering so much. I once went cold turkey on Clonozapem when my pharmacy wouldn’t give me my meds. It was hellacious 2 days and fortunately I was able to restart it in a few days. It took my body a little bit of time to get better. Why R U weaning yourself off Clonozapem ? U must contact your therapist ASAP. I’m here 4 U Hugs 🤗 S

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Wow this is impressive that you are able to work full time. My friend has weaned from 20mg valium to 15mg, 700mg seroquel (quetiapine) to 50mg but he is on disability and a complete wreck. He is also agoraphobic. And indeed it is extremely tough to do alone. Do you have close family members and supportive friends to help you?

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I’m sorry to hear your friend is also having a hard time. I’m sitting here on the side of the road before going in to work. I’ve been praying and think it is time I go on stress leave as it is getting harder to function. I have my mom and brother. Also thinking of going to a detox place. This is so scary cause having anxiety/agoraphobia and taking clonazepam to function is like taking away that ability. It’s all I’ve known. My doctor is having me go off these pills. Guessing I’ll find a new me in the end. This too shall pass. In need of prayers. God Bless and sending many prayers into the Heavens 🙏❤️

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