how is it that i am in such a deep depression? if you were to look at my childhood and my upbringing, you would be confused as well. my entire family loves me. i had friends (regardless of how superficial the relationships were) who would hang out with me. but despite that, i still suffered from sadness. i was bullied in 5th grade and tried to kill myself by hanging, but failed. i believed what those bullies said about me and feared that I would never be liked by anyone besides my family. after 5th grade things got better but i was still sad and insecure. i fell into a deep depression my sophomore year of college, felt euphoric during the summer, and now am back to square one. im a junior in college who is probably about to take a gap semester because i havent had the will power to complete any of my homework assignments. im so hungry right now but am too tired to get up and eat. fuck. how did I develop this on my own?
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If the depression not due trauma, stress and difficult circumstances, then it could be due to some medical or lifestyle reason - such as deficiency of nutrients, systemic yeast infection, food intolerance, heavy metal poisoning, etc. It could also be due to genes.
Try changing your lifestyle factors such as having a nutrient rich natural diet, taking omega-3 and other supplements necessary for optimal working of the brain, exercise, yoga, meditation, getting enough sunlight, etc - and see if these help to reduce your depression.
Hope this helps.
My God, you do have reason. Being bullied is very traumatic at any age. The stuff bullies say about you can come back to you over and over. Have you considered therapy.? Some can be available online now too.
yes, that’s very true. i feel like i was always trying to validate my worth through my friendships and obviously that didnt work. I currently have a therapist but i dont think I connect with her much. we’ve been meeting every 2 weeks since november and I just dont see any improvement. in fact, I feel like ive gotten worse
HonestlyITS NOT YOUR FAULT>
Depression knows not to discriminate.
Its like Covid 19 in that respect.
I hope you find at least some of what you need here.
one day and we never know when. although we'd like to, you say to yourself-Its gone, I feel good-yes it has passed.
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Gabrielle 00 It usually takes time in therapy to make any real progress but if you don't feelyou are connecting to your therapist ,I suggest you look into finding another. So sorry about the bullying. That can have a devastating affect on self esteem so you hang in there because you are special and one of a kind