HELP!! I AM SAD EXPERIENCE DEPRESSION ! ANY HELP TO MAKE. MYSELF PRODUCTIVE WOULD HELP !

[Dariusbiology]

Hey I am 18 years old I am experiencing depression and mood swings

I have good education interest and passion to study but my parents and my family allways have fights and it's hurting me . I thought of sucide many times and even went to commit one ! I am very sensitive and I feel sad about me not able to achieve something I want to where as people without any support or a roof on head achieve ! I am sad ! Please any help in form of your words will be greatly appreciated

Hope I made it clear to myself and have that spirit I once had on studying .

And I am loosing hope and confidence on my education that I will do something even tho I have many ideas in my head and a strong desire to make something new and exciting for the people .

But I feel sad and let down ! I often cry ! Some days I STUDY 12 to 10 hours some like now today !!! I did not touch the book I am lazy ! But not a lot !

I don't know what's happening I do not go out and I hate being with people ! But I like photography of stars and many things

I write poems but I often cry after writing them I am sad most of the time

[Hidden]

Welcome DariusSorry u are feeling like this. U seem like a wise young woman. I like u already. There is nothing I hate like parents who are figjting. I grew up in alcohol and fights were the results. Most of the time u are expected to take sides when u love everyone. I know what u are going thru. One other thing I love about u is that u are focused and know what u want, that is powerful. Depression feeds on hope for the future but u are beating it,how ausome. Have u thoughts about leaving home and staying on your own or u don't have the means right now? Sorry u have head to attempt suicide but one thing I am happy about is that it did not work out. U have joined people who know exactly how you feel. Are u seeing a therapist? Welcome again to the group. Before I forget, bring those poems coming, we love them

[JP8810]

Know that you are loved child of God and that although things seem overwhelming right now, things will get better. You have many talents and you sound as though you have a kindness to help others. I would recommend seeking some counseling and if you have strong feelings again of suicide please go to the hospital emergency department. Right now you are having a difficult time seeing the positive because depression causes a negativity bias. It's as though our brains have a negative filter which makes it difficult to see the positive things in life when we are depressed. Don't be afraid to reach out for help. I will say a prayer for you.

[Ma1413]

When you are going thru this you feel like no one can understand or know what you are feeling. But there are many of us that go thru this, but they just don’t talk about it. So you are notGoing thru this alone.

Growing up I felt all those things and more. Not

Knowing that there was ways and things I could do to get better and feel better to manage my feelings.

Eating right, talking to someone friend, family, therapist and creating a workout routine and or

Meditating. A lot of people feel strange going to talk to someone they do not know. But now with social internet you can read up on the therapist see the reviews, some of them right a biography of themselves. So this helps knowing a little about the person you will speak with.

For me after a couple of years my Docter recommended I look into medication. It was low dosage and I am glad I did. Trust me I wasn’t happy and it took a long time to accept

It.

But I see myself now and before. And my emotions are more controlled. Allowing me to focus on my family, friends, and today.

I hope your afternoon or your tomorrow is better than earlier when you wrote this post.

And how a user wrote earlier don’t forget you are Loved.

P.s. remember as we grow our bodies change and hormones so there will be days where we are more emotional. So don’t be so hard on your self.

Sending you love and light xxxooo💖