I just feel scared and angry

Being scared leads me to a feeling of disconnectedness and like I'm never gonna be one with myself and the world. Does it ever end and does enlightenment ever happen? For me I just feel like I am still so far away if even aware of it. Sitting in reflection right now listening to beautiful yoga music. Sending any positive energy i have to you all. Its not a lot of positive energy but yeah, wish you all success in the journey of reconnecting with the self.

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I also meditate and it does help, but like you I would love to reach enlightenment and be totally connected with the world and finally find peace in my mind. Being scared about every thought is painful and it really makes me really exhausted.

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I feel the same on so many occasions. I'm at work and I am a cashier and just looking into peoples eyes and not feeling the connection and when I know its something I am doing wrong it just tears me apart and its like how can I do this differently because if I don't feel like I am connecting through love I would rather just be by myself but that is just a coping mechanism and lot of the times.

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Happens to me too.

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I resonate alot..I am also wanting to find the answers to toxity and connecting with myself..I have alot of anger and sadness everyday and it's not the way I want to be but it lingers around every second and I can't shake it off...it sucks all the energy out of me