Please help me find my hope and live with a purpose

[lost_wanderer]

I am sharing this for the first time. I wanted a place outside facebook to write about what's going on in my mind truly. People only make fun out of everything there. I can never find anybody there who can listen to me without judging. I dont know whether there are people who have experienced what I am going through.

I am LOST. I dont have a clue what I can do with my life. I dont have a purpose. I feel like running away. I have no work. I wanted to study, pursue a phd. A string of wrong decisions had made me sitting at home doing nothing. 3 years now. I wanted to start afresh. But now, whichever road I take, I bump onto closed doors. Everybody around me has been able pursue their dreams. I have failed completely!! Once my friends, without whom I felt like life is over, now I avoid them so much!! I have stopped talking to people. I dont meet anybody. I am sitting at home doing nothing. I have no money. While everybody around me earns, I am still feeding off my parents' income. I am losing all my hopes. I have headaches all the time. Slightest provocation makes me shout and scream on people, which is very nasty. So people have started to avoid me. Everything around me, stings!! I am hating everything. I have become awfully rude. I am growing obese, turning bald, greying hairs and I am only 27. All opportunities seems to be over for me to get back to the normal life. This is killing me!! I am in complete chaos. I am lost!!

[lost_wanderer]

Thank you for responding. I feel so hopeless nowadays, I dont know how to take my life back on track.

[Kudzoo]

I totally understand what you are going through. Please look for help in a therapist. I have had one now for 3 years and she is a life saver. I still have tough days but I have learned to find my triggers and recognize them before they effect me. It doesn't always work but when I am conscious about it I am able to get myself under control. Please don't wait to do this for yourself, I am 52 and lived a long time hating myself. You are still young and can find a way out. Remember you are worth it and you CAN do it, even though it doesn't feel that way.

[lost_wanderer in reply to Kudzoo]

Thank you vey much for the suggestion. I feel so down now and have met with so many failures that I have lost the enthusiasm of reaching my goal. In fact I feel like I have lost my goal completely. Can you give me an insight into how a therapist can help me out of such situations??😞😔

[lost_wanderer]

But time is running. soon i will reach the upper age limit of applying for jobs or admissions. its over for me, i can feel it.

[Hidden]

Hey there, u are in a right place luv. All of us have had our challenges. This is a group of people who have been thru where u are right now and some of us are still picking pieces together, it is a long road but we take things one step at a time. In reading ur story though I feel a therapist can do better than us as u know we are here to support each other emotionally. We will do what we do best and that is being there for u. As u have said that u don't want to share such to Facebook. U are very right there, we only see people who seem to publicy fake staff and it is whe u realize that u need people who are true and genuine. This is why we are all here. U are not lost sister. I also hear that u are not yet working, I blv there are free therapists who can help u in ur area. Once that part is done, u can start figuring things out the best way that suits u, we will still b here for u bcz that is why we are here. As u can see there is a long lists of supporters who also have better ideas... Take heart sister

[SuZQ154]

Sooo sorry you are feeling this way! There is HOPE! A pandemic does not help our fears and anxieties about the future, unfortunately. But, there is HOPE! Please keep reaching out here! We are here to support each other!

You also might want to check out this book. bit.ly/3c9GqxU Purpose Driven Life I have read more than once and it has given me HOPE! I am here for a purpose. it is different than anyone else, yet I know I am loved and lovable and can help others as well.

You are loved and loveable, too!! Prayers and blessings to you today!!

[Jonnay]

Hello I'm here i would love to talk anytime

[Hidden]

Hi, I am in a similar situation. It’s rough to be nearing 30 and still a dependent without ambition, a purpose, or a plan for life. But remember there is always hope even when you can’t see it!

I suggest cleaning up your diet and working in an exercise routine as stepping stones to improvement. You will feel more positive about yourself once you start getting in shape, and then you might discover more enthusiasm for other goals. Don’t give up, try to think of easy activities you can do every week so you don’t continue in the same rut. Switch things up now and then.

I am sure there are many opportunities waiting for you once you find your way over this hump. All the best.

[propjock]

I just saw your post in my feed. I hope that the answers here helped, and that you have not been active because you are on your way!