U share with ur true friends

Not trying to get but u have to understand my ex was never interested in me just the house

Her upbringing and around horse women who hate men. Fortunately a subset

No gender war here w here I live and the nicest people. Floor s me

[Smarticus]

Sounds like the time to get a new ex

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hey- where u been- not trying to bash my ex- but everyone assumes its always the husband efen damn counsleors and family........toher way around........abusvie women exist......try to find someone who will listen

incompatable differnces

[Smarticus in reply to Hidden]

in my very long experience, its time to let her go and move on, you deserve better. HTH

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

all im saying is wilthout bashing- she had dif parenting and wasnt interested in me on any level=......and when u leave innane families want ur scalp.......wrongly.......then peolple say how come u have low self esteem.............gee...........but u should have high .............look when no one wants u........actions speak far louder than any words.......when people look downther noses because we work with animals..............yet we are vrey well educated without being predtious..........doctors treat us lke idiots.......not worth the fight.......we are well educated on many fileds.........try finding a friend? that............is thre hardest nut to crack

[Smarticus in reply to Hidden]

"try finding a friend? " be a friend to yourself, spend some time on who you want to be. Ignore women, they are costly lol. HTH

[Hidden in reply to Smarticus]

ive been the only one in my corner since ten nnnnnnnthats what i got busted for......hear u but..........dont disagree on some women.........a dog or the right horse would be good.........dont disagree partner .......been alone most of my life and thus midstunderstood in bad way........thats what got me into trouble .......no one knew me.......hear u though

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

just got reamed again for spending time on me........jujst stupdi clueles famlil best ignoredd..........best to ge authentic self.......taken me thriey years to say that.....thats what i got nailed for i the hopstial.........taken me thriy years to let go of what i really want........still tempting..........but it would set us all back ultimately........id tell a buddy.......hear u understnad but dude............he aint worth it...........

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what i want are things socially that requrie connections......i have writetn manhy peopel and it falls on deaf ears....or stratgically to be protective........same results same ith inventions and discussions.............which at cant find.........i learned tricks how to hide thngs under paintings.............say or protest what u want then cover it wht final painting..................many tricks.......prob already know.

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ten bioion billion thank us.........yes- the languages of love also include not sex but humansim and human warmth and contact........63 years ........one hug.

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to my gravious kind kind kind friend........i agree- divorce is not a sin....nto in my =books however nice to find soeone...............with life expereince...............who gets goth sides

standing

ovation of thanks

often feel like custer at the party he foolishiy set off........

another story

thak u thnk u thank u for listening

human companiosnhsip chemistry comapatbity

and humaniss high on my prioirity list

dogs are great if u can afford them too

speaking to the choir

many many many thanks helps so mchh

[13ga]

hey brig!

that's AWESOME!!!! thanks for sharing!!!

what media do you use?

is that on paper?

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

fihey thanks i misssssssssss my art club eacrulic on canvas

apoltoes for typint

eyes and radio tubes go

lookint for new mother boards

have no idea whats going on with typint

and 4q

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

need new keyboard or dragon program when i strike oil someday lol

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how do u spell

hey thanks friend......in mandarin????? (hint hint cough cough)

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

show and tell is the best.........im a big kid a5 hear5lotws fo campri43 stories

goiong bllind

yeesh

pacos bill

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

PS: haven't looked @ dragon in some time - but i know way back when; there used to be a free version....

.

and dragon aside - i'd be shocked if there wasn't an open-source dragon alternate available for free to end users....

...

ah screw it... just did very quick look see...

this looks like a candidate.... haven't tried it - but looks promising....

simon.kde.org/

looks like avail for windows / linux; not sure bout mac

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

hey man- first of all .......i usually never reach outsecond i usually get whacked if i do

third- its rare tha5 someone even tries to help me

and doesnt chew my ass

so........any help

is appredia5ed

just the thought is a big help

friends or resou4ces

very rare

thank

u

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

hey brig - happy to help... and i know what u mean... i'm not one to ask for help either... don't want to deal w/ getting turned down.

.

also - i wouldn't want to disappoint you... so if you need me to whack your hand, or chew out your ass... just let me know!

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if ya do check that out - lemme know what you think of it...

ttyl

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

juar fyi i usually send myselr mail or do a dear abby hintsth thing and send it 5o myselr

puppets are fun.......adn company

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

brig - i'm glad to hear you send yourself stuff... we need to do whatever we need to do to feel good, or get a smile...

and doing the dear abby thing - that actually sounds alot like journaling... which is kinda like talking to someone else - but just writing it down in a journal... this is a very healthy and therapeutic thing to do!

helps with processing!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

true- thanks helps a lot........still nice to have trusted people or comrades or something........i was isolated livint with a shister abuser of his wife.......u end up talkng to yourself or sending mail to yourself.......so cut off after 18 months u crave any conversation with reg person......u woiuld think shrinks woudl get it........oooh dont tell shrinks nothing

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

i learned so much over there- one was to bike and just sit......soak up the peopel and dont tour.........just soak up and learn.......lessons and peopel everywhere.........teh slower u go the more u see of course......layers and alyers and layers........fascinating

built for walkintg history every two feet

peole here in a hurry

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

holy crap, brig!!

looks like you blew a gasket or something !!! lol

but i think i got gist.... acrylic on canvas - very nice!!!

not sure bout the next line - i think you're saying your eye's are shot - and maybe there's radio tubes in your head that need replacing?? LOL

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well no worries, my friend - real friends like you with shot eyes, and questionable radio tubes in your head and all !!!!!!

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are you looking to replace the ex with a new motherboard???

that might not be a bad idea!!!!! i might replace CURRENT soon to be ex w/ a new motherboard!!!!!!!

heheh

keep paintin n postin !!!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

western humor partner- no radios out in the woods with the cows

where u thikn all the tall tales come from

cowboy humor

ya when i was born i 1282... .......ah .......cole as hell in the damn casstles........spooky too man........winds whisl53 fhrough thosethin damn things

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

hey man rodeo is all abou5 trust

always good to meet ur pickup man

draww the bullw off u

now those are stories of hidden heros

thanks partner...................got yer back jack

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

ya......give me a horse anyday

havint a hell of a time with thiw keyboared

think burned out most of the main frame

lol

the wirint is a mess...........maybe just bypass.......lol

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

yea - feel your pain;

my KB acting up too... lots of repeats and sometimes skipped letters....

and i'm a touch typist - so it's drivin me up a wall.

saddest of all i have 3 or 4 keyboards layin around - i've just been unmotivated to replace it.... !! :-|

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also - bought this 1 100yrs ago; and it's by FAR my fav keyboard ever - keys are located in the RIGHT places!!! so i really hate to part with it!!

one of the few KB's with the control key where it outta be!!! just to left of "A"!!!!

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i could setup a macro to reprogram a new keyboard - but i'm not even motivated to replace it; let alone reprogram a new one.... sigh !!

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"plumbers wife syndrome" if ya know what i mean...

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

get it.......the carpenter with the kitchen still undone........lol........who doesnt need elves or minions.........god finally gd literallist doctors..........confront humor omg what morons........dont know metaohors dont udnerstand humor the death of humor

omg what idoits.........when life si falling apart? Party!!! omg shrinks are idiots

when ur starving? what do u want on your chips? or steak? hey how was the pub?

yokes yokes yokes............oh in beer too............

when ur freezing

damn its hot..........thank god they are coming out with new swimmsutis in jan

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

omg, brig you crack me up!!!!!

i live for laughs!!! i have no choice... if i didn't - i'd be balling my eyes out all the time.

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

omg - you crack me up!

so "western humor" - does that mean you reside across the pond?

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

yes - in the states as u all used to say in the good or great days.......spent lots of time in southern england...........lots............5 times in the imperal war museum people who made sense.......school system that made sense.........lots of stories .......ive tried to say thak u......e.no ones interested......harder to get poushbised

me my saddles wer 45 years old.............try to tell people.......i knwo what i like........tough reliable .........like the old range rovers and our old trucks........relable feels right........dont mess withit.........no one gets it..........learned sooooooooooooooo much during my time there........1975........when safe..........americans................u mean people are different in the rest of the world?

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

clue

less

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

tbiggest mistake we ever made was not to rebild britian

our ally

(sp)

our only one

with the marshal plan

cant talk to americans.......they are just test takers........4 mins after trhe test

they cant rememger anyiting

when i was in britain

u stood up

and discussed teh subject

can bs school masters like in the us of stupid a

totally right

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

(education)

holy crap brig - you don't wanna get me started on education!!!!!

i'm in total agreement with you!!!

i'm a very weird fella.... i tend to remember almost anything i learn...

a friend of mine was same way - we used to go to bars - and ask people questions like....

"what's an isosceles triangle"; "what's 10% of 120"; "what's capitol of ..."; you name it - we'd ask... and almost NO ONE could answer any of the questions!!!

we'd even offer paper and pen to figure out 10% of 120 - and only 1 person could answer correctly - our waitress..... but wait - there's more!!!! something possessed me to ask her HOW did she figure it out (without pen / paper)... and she said - are you sitting down? - she said - well x is y% of z and z goes into 120 w times, so w * y% = 12 !!!!!

my friend and i were stunned silent!!!!! she ran 10 miles to do a 5 yard dash !!!!!

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so yep - education sucks here - priorities in completely wrong place. and kids suck too - because neither them nor their parents care enough to value the worth of a REAL education!!!!

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and we pay dearly for it - we are losing our competitive with the rest of the world.... they are gonna eat us for lunch!!!! why? because we've got a bunch of idiots here that don't know the difference between a country and a continent - let alone be able to point to EITHER on a map !!!!!! most can't even pick the right hemisphere !!!!

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

(clue-less)

yep.... i've been wondering where in the world i would go...

when i run away from this he!! hole !!!!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

should we work on the warp drive or the transporter or what first? any thoughts? lol

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

(warp or transporter)

brig - BOTH!!!!! work on BOTH!!!!

anything that let's me get outta here - i'm all over it!!!!

...

actually - scratch that...

warp drive first!!!!!

then we could search the universe for intelligent life!!!! sure isn't any on this planet!!!!!!!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

amen amen amen

where the hello have u been man

onlu dude who makes any sense

ya man lets get it on.............start the design shit''

l

lets go

how do we get past the asteroids?

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

yea - been tryin to deal w/ my own spit... and not succeeding very well...

asteroids? - that's easy! - "up or down" - obviously with respect to the plane of the solar system, since there's NO up/down in space....

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i'm more worried about the kuiper belt - as that seems tobe fully spheroid... but - i think that not a problem as long as we can engage the warp drive prior to reaching the kuiper belt... the drive should bend space around us - or us around space.... not sure we'll ever know which!!! but who cares - we don't need to know that answer - just need to "make it go" !!!!!

(and get the frack outta here!)

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

readers digest is famous for humor iw best mediine e5 al

so whhellow is wih5h wshrinks?"

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

all guys in the military know about the buddy system'

guess who dont...............the system that hates the mlitary..........

the buddy system keeps guys alive

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

guess who doesnt knw how exerdise is a stress buster

hin5t hint

the mhs

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

(mhs/exercise)

brig - i WISH i could say i was shocked.

know who else doesn't know how exercise is a stress buster?

better than half of all americans!!!!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

no joke? god........the mhs never heard of robin wililams? never heard of yokes? of readres digest? they are cutting edge? ahhhhhhhhhe.........cutting ed=ge of

ofllllllloh..................the joke that they are the joke by thinkign they are the lead when this all has been known by the major relibions since tme ........i mean mouring and grief is new.......memorials ...........jsut were invetned by the shrinks........

jews gpdont mourn ever

or have wakes.................oh.........no funerals in eyptain times??

in

fascinating..................never talk faith to shrinks theyh are chemi=cal and neuro transiter types..........omg huge mistake to open up.......

omg

im an anthro guy

all cutures have myths............omg mhs is omgt

oh..................yokes...........improv is fun

snl is a hoot

role playing..............that would ge great to have the doctors take their own medicine

oh .................laughing on the ceiling tomorrow at three

poppint into chalk paintings

and want to go to india with uncle?

my car does go chitty chitty

lol

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

brig - you got me ROTF lol'g!!! and i can NOT possibly thank you enough - with my present state of mind - i really needed that!!!!!

.

as for what you say about shrinks - you DO know what the qualifications are to become a shrink -- don't you????

you have to be SERIOUSLY mentally ill to begin with - then you must go thru therapy to become close to stable - and THEN you get license to practice psychology !!!!!!! ROTFLMAO !!!!!!!

.

you do chalk paintings too? please post!!

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

i was used to very advanced riding coaches.......very........like multimple gold medalswas used to very advanced surgeons........blow ur mind in vet med.

i was used to a good marital counselor right before i went into the hosoptal

so.......i automaticallu trusted this guy

whoa

stupid

had no idear the games and laundry lists of ethical violations and insults........

no idea how superficial doctors are.........i do now.......

scary stupid

like othey er worlds and rule su have to fgure out.........

that jsut hte starrt as they can and will do anthign they want.......forget human rights and lawyers and

anyhow......... l t

taken me a long time to fguure out

p;rogagly neuro and medical and drug orietn

duh

and lousy at psychotherapy

good peple to avoid

what not to do .....those are lessons too

who not to emmjulate

those are lesson too in the long run............

the scary thing was he had state pwoer- was metting up with hosital peoelpole clearnly sent by him sayig things ony he nj=

knew and called my residentcy five stares away later.........

and made secret deals with my family that i had geen trin to get away from for yearss......

goes on and on.........i had no idea.........he was a VC lover and set me up........

i had no idea.........biases

i said one thing........he misinterpreted and totally fucked me.........he didnt check or ask did i gtet that righ.............nope...............totally fucked me.............all wrongt.........

i

he isnt worth......it ultamately...........takes a lot fo will power to not do certain things

and just end it once and for all

mono

on

mono

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

god..........what did i say.............so grateful u let me konw....i was jsut venting finally letting the abscess out...........depression is anger internaliszed of course which luna knows andwhy she and others let me vent............or in another modelthe pressure cooker.........

lower the heat

let off steam

cool it donw

but dont let the stream accumulate

always allow exersions and venting

many wauys fo venting

or using the energy t

u can divert those energies into exerciss and burn it off etc.......

commmoon knowldte but u are helping me rememger as they wipsed out my memorises.........still coming back

have a lto of amnesia............cant remember

goals?" cant remember............lost my everhting

dont rememger just surviving

til someone jogs my memeories

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

any thing or any form of p;gment is game.........like native amerian when i was gettngt desperater...........used cardoard panels .........anyhtingi did a 18 x 20 mural on a bualiding

try to promote it

try to promote anyh artists

chalk would be fun

have treid pastels...........cools

and pencils..........whoa some very cool artists............easier to control than my paitnign

which i m jsut so so

have to udnestand my family and ex weere

why would u want a webpage of ur art?

same with the college- oh ..........artists.........uh.........oh aniimal professors........oh.....ya

want the club back show and tell for everone

but whoa thanks..........what to say thnk u..........wow

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

oh,,,,,,,,,sorry ..........the reference to the chalk paiinting was out of mary poppins and laughting on the ceiling.........time when i was isolated and very alone.........u know u satrt to thik of the funiest thigs and its hilariouis ........and so right..........the whole movie u study and the who thought this darn thing upo and anywna.........hilarious poping in and out fo chalk apaintisngs and 'hidden talent of a othersiwse chimeny sweep.............silly guy off to india in chitty chitty band bang................hillarious...............adn no pne got upset..........

im off to india

okay ........have fun..........say hello to the tigers and eleoohats or whatever

good lessons..........hilarriuos

candy that was a flop but turnedinto dog candy

hmmmmm good lessons........

ok i was alone at the time cut off................

no radior or tv or books

so funny

[Hidden in reply to 13ga]

hey- since the gov wont listen..........lets take some barren land in the west.........and divert the mars flights to there............let them play and save lost crews and a trillih dolars we can use elsehwere...........everyone wins............

oh til a hiker walks up and say...........hey man.......whicih way to st louis?

hmm mght have to reithink iths (ie they already do this of course.........ta spend a trillion dollars to explroe a known hunk fo barren rock.............we know it is already..............and i used to be pro nasa..............hello............not now..........we do not needcoujd to know the compsoiton fo the juiter more than nwo..............millons that sould be used elswere

sorry nasa.........love u.............but that luzuery time............

) but tongue and cheek poiltical satire helps me disgtuse my

wthello???? a triiion dollars? for what?

[Hidden]

i should be an old time street cop or boy guard

or

or

miltary no lont

ger an optonpp

shocked that peoare ple want protec5 predito4w

preditors

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

i lived overseasive worked with horses all my life

im shocked that mental health is so naive and ultra left

and

don5 hurt the mugger types

incredulous

wonder why we haf breakdwnsw

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

ir u do not have selr preservationi will nor

protect teaxh or escort u

[Hidden]

Happy Ted Bundy fate day......celebrating for a week......he will never be cold and im glad..........the mhs is stupid about non violet

Happy father ho fate day.......same

Happy beautiuful kind endotthelial dove and song bird days

Happy neutrophil and tK cell complement days.........god bless

Happy S ons And S ons day........long live those who dare.....the best of the best of the best

[Hidden]

Happy US M achine Company Day and Jolly Greene JeansHapppy puff the magic dragon day...........

[Hidden]

confession- scared spitless of most women.........they know exactly how to hurt u and whats a guys supposed to do..........cant argue or hurt women...........they can and say anhting do anhytingcrucify u work together etc..........for what..........u de enemy to them........not all but been through it hundreds fo times................the politics and so forth........whats worse.......my family '

oh women can do no wrong

they never fight just men

omg

women will tear a kind woman apart and why we protect them

teh evil queens things

the jelous mother in law thing

shrinks are so obivious...........unreal unreal how clueles sthey are unreal

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

the toughestpartisans were not men..............shrinnks are ungeivable how could anyone be so clueless.................unreal...............;pisssed off women in revenge of their men..........god help u.........ruthless

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

my mother and sisters

women never fight

its always men

omg

[Hidden]

if my pen name were catherinei could say or write or think as i please

in our world.........

ironic

oh god if a man says it its scarey and threatening.......

u just wait til the women or a celeb says it..........then its real or ok

[Hidden]

its hilaroius that the mhs sys5em doesn know tha5 horse women are a subset of woman and total mericinaries.........totally clueless but of course they are the shrink........hilaroius.........

no wonder the radio tubes blew ...........like talking to an east coast person where water is abudnant

dude in the west........its stop raining on july 4th................til sept..........

they dont understand or relate or believe a word u say

diff worlds man

like no water for 50 miles.......long way to walk man...........no water 4 feet dwon bone dry..........

like trees explode in fires dry..........

peopel tell u are full of it

other way around..........we grw up there..........they believe a word same as shrink

knock your self out..........care i dont

[Hidden]

to my friedn on edudation

ur right esattly

[13ga in reply to Hidden]

yes indeed!!!

brig - you keep me smiling, and keep me thinking !!!

oh if only everyone were like me.....

no wait - scratch that!!!! i can barely stand myself - let alone of world filled w/ me's !!!!!!!!