Ok I need some real hard core mind bending puckering up.
I’ll try totally some of the story that happened to me today I’m sorry for my spelling my cognitive impairment is at its max and I cannot type this so I’m speaking into my phone I had a hearing today over the phone with the court against my wife she has set a non-molestation order on me from September The 23rd which means I am allowed no contact with my wife my two stepchildren one which is lovely and the other one is most probably born from the devil I asked today if I could send a birthday card to my stepson the judge asked my wife my wife said no this is what I have a molestation order against you she accused me of every single abuse under the sun there is no evidence to suggest that I abused my wife it is all taken on the women’s word face value which is totally wrong and they seem to think that emotional abuse is okay to be underlined as physical abuse I would like to tell you I was born in a lovely family it wasn’t easy but I would not have not and don’t intend to hurt a fly as my mum said to me I will never get a nice girlfriend because I’m too nice I laughed say my wife said that she had cleared out the whole of my workshop of all my exotic wood that I finally created with my mind having ADHD it was a get out clause of life I feel so numb I don’t know the pain I feel is I feel as though my soul has been ripped out and I don’t know whether the pain is greater for the fact that she has literally destroyed everything that I have made and she knows it to hurt me or the pure betrayal of such a wonderful wife that I loved more than life its self as you could probably imagine having ADHD it’s hard to decipher how you feel is your mind feeling the pain is your mind making up the pain all I know is that I feel as though my heart and soul has been sliced inch by inch hurting me to grading me deeper and deeper. As some of you will have seen my post you’ve all said I’m positive I’m upbeat if you and if you want to look back to April and see the absolute almighty cataclysmic pile of crap that I’ve had to deal with the aftermath of my wife lying spending housing benefit making us poor blaming me for telling the kids off and telling me off in front of the kids me being hit my my stepdaughter on the left hand side of my head where I have a benign tumour because she doesn’t agree with what I say yeah I’ve never taught her any violence I’ve never taught her any maliceI’ve only ever had half a panic attack once before and I do believe that I am actually having a slight panic attack I don’t know if I’m really in reality or virtual reality anything I touched doesn’t feel real my mind having to overcompensate keep my body churning away my legs giving way I’m panting I’m wheezing with every breath I take I am just at a loss As to how somebody can just hurt somebody I’ve hardened up over my life and I can stand on my own 2 feet and I’m more than self-sufficient. I’m not putting this down to a bad start of 2021 because I will not tolerate being treated in such a despicable intolerable poisonous toxic fashion.
I know things will be better tomorrow and that’s probably why I’m still alive but please please anyone just if it’s a Hi I don’t come on here very often to ask for a lot I’m always giving out and helping ppl.
I’m sure some of you over the last week have chatted with me and I’ve even been told how positive I am and how I write my passages and I’ve been congratulated on it.
Just tell me I can do it and I’ll believe you I think all the years of meditation is not keeping me sane,He’s just stopping me think I feel more than I think which is good because it’s good to go by the way of your heart but all I ask is for a little help.
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