so much things on my mind

[PeaceArie]

hello,

i have so many things on my mind.

i want to say to you to remove them off my chest. i smoke and i want to stop smoking. i feel some heat in my chest sometimes and i am very worried this comes from a problem in the heart. i am so parno about it.

i have this thought about a friend that he will say about me i am lazy, i am not a good friend. i don't want to change. i care so much about his opinion about me. i refused to go out with him because he is so bossy and he stresses me. i have guilt that i am closing doors in front of me and i am choosing to be lonely. but i hate this guy, he is so bossy and he is aggressive and wants to judge people.

i have also to pay debts to my bank, i sent them the money but i have to send again because my account is closed and i have to pay the credit cards with debts by other means. it stresses me out.

i sleep at 3 am and wake up at 4 pm and i feel so much guilt. i am in holidays so i should chill out.

i read that someone replied to me and said i am overstressed. but i disliked reading this about myself. i wish someone tells me you are a good person and you are resisting stress very well. you are a great guy and a you handle stress very well. i have a stong stress resilience. this is what i wish to hear from people.

i feel lonely and i have so much internal critic that i am a lazy person and that i don't do things that i should do. that i am a lazy person.

i want to be a relaxed person who enjoys life. i want to feel that calmness in my head. i feel so much internal critic from myself. the threat voice is so strong.

i am trying to be compassionate with my self. looking from the top of my hill to all this and saying i am managing this so well.

thank you in advance for encouraging me. i need encouraging words.

thanks,

peace aries

[Hidden]

Hi PeaceArie, we all have voices in our head and it is just exhausting to think some time. Everyone develops their own coping mechanism. In the past I used to shut down completely and created a bubble around me. Slowly I tried to get out of my comfort zone because I realized it didn’t help me but sent me to dark night of the soul. Now, I try to shift my anxiety to more a steady place by opening up and do something just basics like music, little jokes, pets, small projects around my surroundings. Hope you can take things one day at a time 🙏

[Starrlight]

Sounds like you’re doing well. I think 🤔 try to just remember you are strong and that things will work out. You are chill and you can go with the flow like nature, just being you is enough. You are doing good things.

[EllaAlexandra]

You are doing so well! You recognize the critic in your head. Dont believe anything it says. You are wonderful, strong, you ll achieve whatever you want to!