I know I need to go no contact once and for all with my ex, and it's very tough for me to do that.

No one likes to be the bad guy or the evil woman. I've known for a very long time that we need to totally split apart, and I've made some serious attempts at doing that where we haven't talked for months, but I cave in too easily. We were always best friends, but I think this is a case where sadly we were better off as friends than making a relationship out of it. I don't regret marrying him, and our wedding was such a happy day. But 5 years after the wedding, that's when I really knew we had serious problems and this wasn't going to work out like I'd hoped. He does not want to let me go!!! But in a lot of ways I'm already gone. I'm planning on finally breaking it off after New Year's. I don't want to change my phone number but I think I'm going to have to. And there's a lot I'm going to miss about him, but neither one of us is going to move on if I don't do this. It's eating away at me. This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I still care about him, but I'm not in love with him anymore. I want to meet new people. I don't want him to hate me.

[Natsteveo]

This is a very hard and very brave decision to make if you feel that way and you’re not in love with him anymore then maybe you should go you’re separate ways.. but only you know what’s best and no breakup is ever plain sailing I think a marriage is a lot harder to walk away from and it’s your life so if you need to walk away to be happy then that’s up to you..who knows you may just need a break from each other for a while you may not part for good but then you may do completely but whatever you do it’s got to make you happy in yourself

Merry Christmas to you

Take care of yourself

Nat