a repeating cycle

[celestw]

tw, this may b sensitive 4 some ppl

once again i am here stressing on this pandemic...i just saw an article saying “the worst is yet to come” for my area and i’m sitting here thinking “it’s gonna get worse than THIS?” i didn’t think this could get worse i feel as if everything was already bad, my mental health was depleting so badly i nearly considered s*!€!de, tons of my family and friends got covid, i’ve been stuck in my house since march and haven’t seen any friends for 9 months, my anxiety and depression has been the worst it’s ever been in my whole life and to see tons of articles like “the worst is yet to come” and “it’s just beginning” then i look up again and i see headlines like “celebrity dies...” or “virus mutation..” or “a new virus coming?...” lt makes me sit and think damn..nothing will ever get better for me or for us will it, just when i think it’s gonna be okay, everything just gets worse...it always gets worse..i want to give up...i don’t want to try anymore...i’m so mentally exhausted to the point where i jus cant anymore...i don’t try in school, i failed a class, i feel like a failure, i don’t take care of myself anymore, i don’t have the motivation, i don’t even eat,,i’ll go days without even showering,,,i feel so pathetic..i wanna end this cycle of constant anxiety and depression

sorry for this long useless paragraphi hate to be like this on the holidays, everyone enjoy your christmas im sorry❤️i just need to get this off my chest, i have no one to talk to about this without them getting mad at me or simply not caring

[hurtingheart1]

So sorry you’re having that I get it you’re not alone!! 💞💞((((((hugs to you))))))))) I just don’t think we need to believe everything we read or be careful of what info you take in a try to look for positivity where you can ppl need remember the phycological damage or part of things in our health and well being also!!!

[Hidden]

The news media wants to make a buck so most of what they print is sensationalist, exaggerated, or fear mongering. In addition to social distancing, might want to distance yourself from the news for the sake of your mental health! No need to apologize, it’s good to get things off your chest. It’s been a rough year and I’m sorry it’s been so hard for you. Don’t give up though. There’s always hope.

[FlexibleSoulWanderer]

Hi celestw,

I did much more poorly in school this year and I was hospitalized last month for a suicide plan due to covid as well. Once quarantine began, everything slid downhill for me as well, and my girlfriend and I had to break up due to my abismal mental health. My depression has since become worse, replacing anxiety, and I don't know if there's a way out. However I'm glad I am alive right now because I know there are other people who are going through similar pain as me. Thank you for sharing your story it helps my anxiety lower a bit! Keep trying