Well folks, I WAS excited about Xmas and now I'm just not.....

I am feeling very sad and depressed and just blahhhh. I was planning on making a nice dinner on Xmas Eve. Went to the store today to get the food. The store was mobbed,couldnt wait to get out of there!!! And I need to lose weight and I'm stressed so I'm munching on sunflower seeds which are very fattening. For a lot of people, their favorite holiday is typically Xmas. Not really so for me. I always liked Halloween the best. Christmas is too frought with expectations and disappointments. I wanted to spend a little time reading aloud the story of Jesus birth from the Bible, just because I am Christian and that's what the holiday is supposed to be about. Now I feel really stressed and like what really is the point??? I'm not giving gifts this year but my sister said she wanted to get a gift for me anyway and now I feel guilty about that. The holiday spirit is not with me. I want to crawl into bed and hibernate.

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I agree.

Sometimes feels like there’s so much pressure to have everything together on or at least by Christmas. It’s disappointing. When someone gets you a gift, there is a huge obligation we can feel to get them something which is nice for them, but maybe your sister just wanted to show you she cared. but your day did sound rough and I’m sorry about that

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Thank you for caring. I've got to stop being the Grinch. Tomorrow is another day!!!!!

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Thank you. I have 2 younger sisters, one that I don't get along well with and one that I do. She's the one that we do get on well, and it's very sweet she wants to get me something and I know she is struggling financially herself. I tried to tell her a week ago not to worry about getting me anything, but I guess I'm sort of curious now!!! 🙂

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Would jesus have done that or would he have given a smile? Give your sister an IOU for a job you will do for her, as your gift for her. Eg ironing or cleaning the floors anything . Hope that stops the gilt, at this time, I would welcome that gift with open arms. You have this,any food cooked with love and joy of doing food for other Is a feast, no matter what it is.

Lots of people cant afford to feed families even basically so dont stress over food xxxx

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Thank you, you do too!!!! I hope you have a great Christmas and New Year's, even if you can't be around a lot of people because of the pandemic. I'm feeling a little bit better today, it was just stressful being in that store for so long.

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I know what you mean. I was thinking of painting my nails today or tomorrow just for fun before Xmas. Right now it feels like too much work. But your idea of reading from the Bible is really nice!