Living a double life

[GoldenMaknae97]

I sometimes feel like I live a double life, in a sense. In front of my family, I put on this show of being happy and cheery. However, when I am alone I feel the opposite but I refuse to be seen outside of that happy standard I created. My family doesn't understand my anxiety and they think I just worry too much about things for no reason. Maybe that's true but I can't just turn the switch off and stop. When I am alone, I get in touch with my true feelings, feeling low...but when it's family time I have to get my acting skills together. It's kind of tiring.

[gnsbao13]

I can totally relate. I did eventually open up to my family which I felt helped “lessen the load.” Have you thought about talking to your family about the severity of your worrying/feelings?

[GoldenMaknae97 in reply to gnsbao13]

no I am super afraid of opening up but I know i should

[gnsbao13 in reply to GoldenMaknae97]

It is terrifying opening up. Once I opened up to one family member, it was easier to open up too the rest