This semester

I feel like such a failure. People in my circle don’t understand me. And they don’t have any response to my thoughts I worry of.

I honestly practically failed all my courses this semester. The sad part is I tried and it it so frustrating. I g at 49 or 60 on a paper. I think I did great like a b and get a c- or d.

I know next semester I will get a person to read my stuff from the school because everyone I know is like wow your so smart lol. Probably cause they don’t actually read it fully lol.

I been trying to get this degree for six years. I’m almost done. I struggled my whole degree. I struggled financially, academically, and etc.

I’m almost forty and I still don’t know who I am.

I have applied to so many jobs in a field I have a diploma for and no one hires me. And so I been on a new journey of school and well. If my gpa is not high enough I can’t get into graduate school.

[AzulMaria]

I might not understand what you are passing through, but I know how it is when people expect a lot from you and you can't deliver it. Too much pressure. Too much. And I also know how is to feel a failure. So, I'm sorry not being able to help you with a wise advise, but I just want you to know I get you. You're not alone.

[Hidden in reply to AzulMaria]

Thx for taking the time to reply

[goldieoldie in reply to AzulMaria]

AzuMaria,that was a very honest response and I want you to know I fully apppreciate it.We can only respond when we are less pressured,or going thru a very bad patch-no one can expect you too,your reply was good enough and hope that you can get some support from others when its needed.

[goldieoldie]

Keep going,keep searching you will succeed in what your looking for ,accept yourself and try not to beat yourself up,when in fact,your a success ,and not without a struggle,nothing is ever handed to us ,no pain no gain,accept and just be yourself,good luck .

[Hidden in reply to goldieoldie]

You’re very intelligent. My teacher once told me that if it was easy everyone would be doing it hahah

I’m academically just not that lol great.