So I am writing this on PC which is easier than texting it all out. I can be more fluid on explaining things here. So in 2016 I showed up here a mess, a total wreck, I didn't know what was happening, my heart would just randomly take off, I had brain fog, I didn't want to get out of bed half of the time. It was a pure nightmare, my only peace was at night when I would get a break from it all laying in bed and the symptoms would ease some.
Took me an entire year to get a doctor to take me seriously then come to find out it actually was something wrong with my heart but they kept blowing it off to anxiety every single time. I was relieved, happy, Sad, mad all in one. I was DXed with a SVT, Supra Ventricular Tachycardia, everytime I went into the the ER I was told the old famous line of "Youre too young for heart issues" or "Its just your anxiety" and I know for sure it wasn't, it would kick my anxiety off. I was livid at most of the doctors. Took a 30 day heart monitor and wearing it every single day for them to actually catch the events.
In 2018 I threw a blood clot, they were not sure why I did but I ended up on a blood thinner. Fast Forward to now, all these symptoms have returned with a vengeance. And you would think after being DX'ed with the other issues, they would take it seriously, but nope, they are blowing me off all over again as anxiety and I am telling them calmly that yes I have anxiety after the events happen. The one nice thing is my electrophisiologist just noticed my issues and hes having a loop recorder installed in 2 weeks, along with a CT Angio to show me that I dont have any blocks. I appreciate having him in my corner. It's aggravating to say the least, it's scary not knowing, It drains you every single day.
I have to work now with it so it makes it 10 fold worse, before I was able to stay with a family member but after I got better I moved out and got back to work because I felt like my old self again, but now I am a mess again, and having to drag myself in here to work, wondering if I am going to have an incident, is something going to happen is SO annoying and draining, I use to watch a GREAT GREAT man from the UK who went by the name PeeWeeToms on youtube, he was SO GREAT of a human being, he was fighting an uncurable cancer while trying to help others along his own fight to keep going and I stumbled across him by accident. He is the one person who has given me strength right now to keep going, keep fighting, this stuff sucks, its scary, I don't feel well at all but I gotta keep on going. I guess this is just to vent. It was good for that back then, I am not good at all with opening up about feelings to people around me or asking for help, I do not do it at all. My one major flaw I guess. But bottling things up doesn't help at all either and this is a great pressure release knowing youre not alone.
Agora has been wonderful and is a great person apart of this community, it seemed alot more active back in 2016 than what it does now but I am hoping that picks back up. I like having a community to come to and talk to.
Anyone else have to work while dealing with chronic medical issues or anxiety?
Anyone else had a bad habit of being in the ER constantly over panic attacks? I try my best not to go in but when your heart is thudding around and you have a previous history of blood clots its kinda hard knowing when or when not to go in, and it sucks even more with the pandemic going on. Anyways feel free to respond, just a vent post.
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Im not sure if Ive met you before. Your name sounds familiar but anyway Ive been on the site on and off since Jan 2018. Ive suffered with depression my whole life and anxiety the last 15 years. I have a close friend who was going through something very simliar to you. She had heart palpitations and she had to wear a monitor too. She had heart surgery bc they found a problem. After the surgery she still felt anxious bc of her heart. She wore the monitor again and finally after a year her anxiety has finally subsided and she is ok.My advice to you is to be patient with yourself. You must be going through a hard time. Im sorry you have to battle this everyday. You're not alone. I used to battle anxiety everyday so I know how you feel now I dont have that battle. My advice is to try to learn coping skills to keep the worry at bay. I know it's hard. Grounding techniques always worked for me. It still does. It might help you.
Once they find out what is wrong with your heart I am sure the anxiety will subside bc you'll know all of the answers. Right now is the difficult part; waiting.
Thanks Sunni, I agree, I think when I get the answers I am looking for, it'll be ok. I just keep trying to tell myself that, I mean what else can I do? I do appreciate the guidance, I been doing alot more mindful meditation but I slipped up on doing it for so long that I am rusty and there are alot of thoughts flying around in my head when trying. Going to take some time to get back to where I was with it. I am ALOT calmer compared to what I use to be back when I originally had these episodes but knock on wood. I do recall my psychologist at the VA telling me that as the years progress, what you will see is the tide of the anxiety become less and less, do not get me wrong, its still there, but each round, the edge is taken off, especially if you face it and don't go on SSRI's and stuff like that, I refused meds because I was told the outcome is actually better if youre not on meds and do CBT, but its alot more intense upfront and exhausting is the draw back. I rather do it that way because in the long term, I feel I will possibly become numb to it.
You're welcome. Just know you are on the right track. It's just takes time & that is what stinks. We want everything over yesterday and it just doesnt work that way. Patience my friend, patience. Do what makes u feel better in the meantime. If u have to take meds then do it. If u have to meditate everyday then do it. If you have to do breatheing techniques then do it. Do it until you find the answers. Again, u r on the right track. Give yourself credit.
Sunni
I was born in 1950 with a Heart Murmur caused by a Hole in the Heart. I was never told anything about it until I had a car accident and crushed my Sternum.I went through all the tests and they found the murmur after over twenty five years. I asked my Parents and they said they did not want to tell me because it would have restricted my growing up. I had further tests and they decided to leave me alone and told me to move on, Now at seventy I never have any problems. I am Diabetic and I go through a tranche of tests every so often. My heart and blood pressure is spot on sometimes they see a little irregular reading although that is all. I live with the consequences of my birth where I nearly died due to an operation at one week. Now I try not to bother regards my past and live my Life
Try and relax, if you worry you will feel Anxious and that will make you feel worse, believe me. If they have the problem in hand, try and put the fear to the back of your mind. I now every time I change a Doctor they ask about my heart.
Now I try to enjoy my life and live it the best I can. Remember we are a long time Dead, So live and enjoy your life whatever the future brings
Thank you bob, I do appreciate that and you are right about that, what has happened has happened, you can't change it. Live life! Peeweetoms was about that on youtube, always smile is what he would say, even on his last days on this planet he said that, and it strikes me that maybe I am weak for not being as brave as Dan. I gotta over come it.
I went thru hell waiting to be diagnosed with a heart issue as noone believed me, and kept telling me..ur a female and too young.Then the heart monitor was put on me for a week and then they figured it out.So.. not being able to walk or stand up without being dizzy wasnt in my head.Cant relate to working, as Im disabled from numerous car accidents,but if u read my profile..I def can relate to having the chronic medical issues and anxiety.
Hit me up anytime if ya need to talk or need some encouragement, or just a good laugh.Im good at turning anything into a joke or something laughable.
I'm sorry for the hard things you're going through with your heart condition and the anxieties it causes. I care about you and hope that you will find a good listening friend who will give you a safe place to vent. It's scary to open up about our feelings and takes time to build up trust with others. Being listened to without judgment or dismissiveness is so important--and it's rare and precious! We are all human with human feelings, fears, and uncertainties--just sometimes they seem so powerful and unstoppable, the negative ones, that it's easier to isolate ourselves. We don't even want to listen to ourselves sometimes. I have lived with major depression many years and have been helped through therapy and support groups as well as medication. Hang in there! Thank you for your willingness to share your feelings and thank you for your military service.
Hi I’m 30 and Iv suffered with svt for over 4 years and still yet to catch it in action. It comes and goes can go with out anything for 3-4 months then bang it’s back. I live on my nerves with it amd like your self Iv spent the last 2 weeks in bed because I’m to scared to move or leave the house incase I have a attack. Iv been told for many years that’s it’s panic attacks and anxiety but my friend qualified to become a paramedic last year and I phoned him the last time and he said that it sounds like a svt attack. I hope younokay.
If you can ask for a small loop recorder to be inserted in your chest, it's tiny and last for years. Take 10 mins to put in and they are always monitoring it.
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