Wish I could turn back time

[Milkshake_15]

I don't want to be in 2022 anymore. I want to go back to 2012 and get the life I used to have back. I want to be a teenager again. I was never in a hurry to grow up, but I'd appreciate the simplicity even more. The world was still messed up, but not THIS messed up. I was just a kid with big dreams, not the almost thirty-year-old loser who hasn't accomplished anything except accumulating failures.

I hate 2022.

The way things are going I don't think I'm ever going to have the life I thought I would. People tell me to "believe" and "give it time" but I've been working my butt off for YEARS and nothing has happened. Because of the stupid mistakes I made, it doesn't seem possible for any of the work I've done to pay off. I'm running on a treadmill. No matter how hard I try, I never go anywhere. Where is my breakthrough? Where is that magical moment when I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel that isn't a train? It happens for other people, why not me? Why am I always the one who is left behind?

[Sylvain-]

I know how you feel. The sense of having taken the wrong decisions missed the right opportunities, and always been in the wrong place. The feeling of being downgraded despite all the efforts and sacrifices you made while everyone else seems to have that ah-ah moment where their life skyrocketed.

I don't know how to help you. I don't know how to help me. My therapist said that not everyone succeeds how they expected, but there are other rewarding aspects in your life. I must admit it hardly recomforts me.

If anyone has a solution to makes things more supportable let me know.

[b1b1b1]

I don't know exactly what your situation is, however the past 3-4 years have been very difficult for most people because of the pandemic. Do you think this may be causing some of your issues, or making them worse.

[Milkshake_15 in reply to b1b1b1]

Most of my issues started in 2017 when my grandpa had a stroke. The past few years have only made it worse

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The past 2 years have been tough on everyone with the pandemic going on. Cut yourself some slack. Things are slowly starting to get better. My life has taken a downturn too.

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Boy do I hear you with this. Unfortunately we cannot turn back time. It sure would be nice at times, but unfortunately we can't. I know how excuriatingly painful it is to have to live with having made mistakes.

I made a huge "mistake" last December. It makes me sick that I made it. Some things I have since learned are the following:

-Nobody is their mistakes.

-We make mistakes because we are human.

-If none of us made mistakes we would never grow as individuals.

- how do you know that others have found that light at the end of the tunnel? Is it because they go around looking like they have it all together? I was just reading about this earlier. Nobody has it all together. Lots of people are just really good at repressing it, that's all. Thinking that others have it all together is a cognitive distortion called mind reading. I've always done this, but am just now learning to catch when I do this so I can combat it. Unless we are psychic, there is no way to know if others have it all together or not. You aren't being left behind. It's your mind telling you you are. It feels so dang real, doesn’t it? That's the painful part about it (that it does seem so real).